I can’t cope

Do not apologise at all for asking! @Captain24 It's really important to ask otherwise we don't know 🙂

And to answer your question, yes. I think that just being honest with how you're going and if it does change to not being safe then you can just start to post that instead. For example; if you are posting that you are having really challenging thoughts of suicide but you aren't going to act on them at that very moment, and you are safe for now (and you just want some support or people to talk to), but then it escalates as the conversation progresses, then it's completely okay to say that your thoughts are getting worse and that they are escalating with the conversation. Then you can see what would work best for you after that, whether it's calling someone, or going to distract yourself with something else, or even starting another conversation about something else on the forums.

Suicidal thoughts should never be a taboo topic, so we want to normalise it as much as possible, as long as it doesn't trigger anyone else on the forums (e.g. being specific about certain methods, very confronting language etc.), and as long as we know where you stand safety-wise at the time that you're having the thoughts.

Thank you so much @amber22

This helps a lot. I just keep getting into trouble but it hasn’t really been explained like this. Ive been having trouble with knowing what to say when I’ve been having these thoughts.

I’ve been feeling like it’s not ok to admit to these suicidal thoughts. So I’ve been trying to deal with them on my own and it’s been really tough. When dealing with them myself is when I get myself in way too deep and it’s too late. I just didn’t know how to reach out for help on here

before it escalates. I do feel like it’s a taboo subject especially on here. Night is when I struggle the most and I guess others do to. But that’s when my support team aren’t available. Im always scared that people are going to be called on me when I’m not sure I need them.

Im guessing that this is the same with SH.

I’ve been told that it hasn’t been ok to mention things that allude to SH either. Obviously not specific methods or means. That I just can’t mention it at all.

So sorry that this reply has taken me so long to post, it's been a very busy day and I appreciate your patience! @Captain24

I think that it goes the same with SH and mentioning SH on the forums. It might be a case of rather saying that you are 'safe for now' even if you did SH or have urges, unless it needs to be escalated for your own well-being of course.

It definitely needs to be mentioned that as the guidelines state, you aren't able to describe anything graphic or discuss any methods used, but you should definitely be able to seek support from others on here without having your posts taken down.

Oftentimes, mentioning suicide or SH will result in a little check in email from one of our moderators just to make sure that you're okay, but other than that, if you are safe for now in both suicide and SH contexts, you should be able to get the advice and support from others on here in a safe way.

Sending you lots of hugs

Thank you so much @amber22. Im sorry I’ve taken so much of your time but I do really appreciate your clarifications for me and others that are reading along.

Im hoping it has helped them too.

Sorry if I have offended anyone.

Hey @Captain24 ! Thanks for the pics! As for your previous post, I haven't actually caught up on anything, but I want to acknowledge that I've read your last post and will go back to the others... I couldn't but reply after seeing those GORGEOUS pics!!

It's been a BIG day here... I probably won't have time to go over the posts until tomorrow... sorry!

@Captain24

wishing you a good day hon 💗💗

Hope the beach is perfect today and brings you joy @Captain24

Thanks @Snowie @Bow.

Today has been ok so far. I had acupuncture done on my back, so I’m hoping that helps. It’s been pretty cold so I don’t know if I can brave it for a swim. It’s also the only time I get a smoke. So now I’m handing.

There is something I use everyday that I didn’t pack to bring with me, as recommended by my team. There is some in mums bathroom I discovered. It’s really not ok.