I can’t cope

No.. different cars. @tyme. There is no way I would go with them. It would drive me crazy and I’m already crazy! I hate going with them on day trips. They fight, they argue. Dad drives like a maniac.

OMG how comfortable is sleeping on the couch? I guess it’s one way you don’t have to share with your niece!

Is the aunt going to keep coming and going? Like after Dec do can you get your bed back?

Kids can say the cruelest things. They just don’t have the filter or maturity to understand somethings should never be said. It’s all good saying that she was tired but I still find that hard to hear after making you feel like that. Are you too much alike and that’s why you have the occasional ‘fight’? Or is there something going on in her life? Maybe trouble at school with friends or non friends or teachers?

So, if you are going in different cars, can you suggest you leave at different times? @Captain24 Or is it similar to my sister last time when I got in the car and was about to leave, then she asks, "Arent we going together?".... so I stayed back and SLOWLY came home with them... do you know how many toilet stops they needed????

As for the aunt.... I don't know what she's doing. I got home one day and they were in the car going to the airport. I'm like, "Oh? you're not staying?"

So yeah....

As for my niece, I think she's just tired and grouchy. And I haven't spent much time with her. Sad, but she doesn't like school. She always wants to stay home. She's a got a graduate teacher who isn't very capable. Hence my niece is bored. On her school report, this teacher put her at year 2 level even though she was at year two level at the end of last year. My sister bumped into the Principal and the principal wanted a chat with her (she knows my sister is a teacher and wants to pick her brain). So my sister just happened to let the prin know that my niece is not really getting pushed at all. Since then, the principal has sent in a more experienced teacher to test my niece. She came out at year 4-5 level even though she's only in year 2.

No wonder she's bored. I'm sure she will get a better teacher next year. The prin is there to make sure of it.

But yeah, this year has been a write off for her.

My nephew on the other hand, absolutely loves school and is flourishing.

I’m hoping we can leave at different times @tyme. But they always expect to travel together. Mum has to go to the toilet every time she sees one. Even if we are in a shopping centre and there is 3 she has to use all three!

I do have to stop a couple of times though as Pixie gets carsick. So I need to get her out and let her walk around so she doesn’t vomit in my car!

That’s hard on your niece. Not having a good teacher can be really detrimental. Also not being challenged. I’m glad the principal got her reassessed. I was lucky all through primary school I had great teachers. Though I was always in the advanced class so they could put an inexperienced teacher in.

I get grouchy when I’m tired too. Maybe she is missing you as well. You have always spent so much time together.

Hopefully I will be able to get some sleep so I’m not grouchy! 😂

Anyway I guess you’re off now. Have a good night.

I just saw this post. So accurate

My example of bipolar.

Depression - you own a bomb of a car and it doesn't want to start.

Normal - cruising along in a suv.

Hyper manic high- racing car full steam ahead.

Hyper manic irritable- sports car with a shaky steering wheel and the passenger keeps pulling up the hand break.

Hi @Captain24 @tyme good morning to you both.

Hoping the day ahead goes well for you 💌💌

Thanks @Snowie.

Wishing the same for you….

I hope you have something’s to help keep you busy today

Not much planned for today @Captain24

Have to go to the supermarket at some stage.

Are you continuing to work through your list today?

Good luck at the supermarket @Snowie!

I just had to go down the street and it’s ridiculously busy. I hate going on weekends and usually avoid it. Pix needed baby pain relief and dog anti-inflammatory for when we go away. She has a really bad knee that been sore in these last couple of days. It looks like she may need surgery but I’ll try a course of needles first. Bloody pets!

You know what. I did start my list but right now I just can’t do it.

I’m feeling really down and it’s just spiralling. I just can’t do today at all. I have no interest in anything. Maybe I’m crashing from being elevated last night. But I hate today.

I just went up the street @Captain24 I try to avoid it on weekends too, way to many people and more chances of bumping into someone I know.

I hope Pix doesn't need surgery. Vets are very expensive too!!

Is it possible just to give yourself a beak today? To discard the list for today and do some nice things for yourself. What would self care look like for you today?

Just sitting down with a cuppa and the dog is snoring on my lap! I'm counting that as self care.

I’m lucky going up the street on weekends @Snowie while it’s mega busy, most locals stay at home. The town grows a few thousand people every weekend!

The injections will cost $100+ if they don’t work she need X-rays and she has to have a general anaesthetic because she is so aggressive at the vet, that’s $300+. About 6yrs ago the surgery was around $1500. It could be a really expensive time. The good thing though is that I want a particular surgeon as she is amazing and is accredited. She is also Pix’s vet. She was away yesterday so I had to get someone else. But she knows Pix and knew Angel. When I went in no one asked me how I was at all. They all asked me how mum was. I think that was really nice. It’s a really caring vet practice.

Im not worrying about my list there isn’t much to do and tomorrow there’s a lot of things I can be doing at the same time.

I need to get through this and stressing about what I can’t isn’t going to help.

Im trying to do something but I’m sitting in the lounge looking at a blank tv screen. I can’t be bothered to turn it on. I looked at my diamond art and I can’t focus on it. The only thing I’ve got that is safe is to go back to bed. But I’m struggling to get off the lounge to do that too.

I think I’m in a really bad way.