I can’t cope

Sorry I missed the convo @Captain24 . What happened to your car?

I know what you mean by there being neighbours outside.

Once, I had a flat flat tyre. I 'drove' it all the way home so that I didn't have to change it in public.

Self-Compassion? Maybe it's about not being so hard on yourself?

Yes yes. I get it 🙂

I had a lemon cake, apple cake and carrot cake.

Yum @Captain24 - cabonara. I love the bacon.

Tomorrow? I'm not too sure yet. What about you? Cleaning and tidying?

I find it hard to give myself compassion too @Captain24

I don't think it is overly easy.

Sometimes I have to be reminded from others that it is ok to reward myself. That it is ok to be nice to myself, that just getting through a day is enough.

Today has been hard for me. I have had to put a lot of energy into just getting through the day. Acknowledging that I have almost made it is a form of compassion. Sitting down tonight with just a cuppa and the dog is self care.

But I really think that self care and compassion looks different for all of us. That it is something we have to practice, it doesn't come naturally to us.

Hugs @Snowie . I'm sorry today has been hard for you.

Do you keep a mood diary? I wonder if there's a pattern?

Can you think of something we can do to help you feel better?

I find self care and compassion so hard @Snowie @tyme I don’t even know where to start. I guess acknowledging what I’ve done today is something even though it wasn’t quite good enough. I do find it so hard.

I don’t even know what I enjoy anymore. I’ve lost all that zest. I have even been doing my diamond art.

Oh 3 different cakes @tyme @I was thinking you had 3 pieces of the same cake. 😂 My favourite cake is Woolies chocolate mud cake! I have no self control if that’s around.

I washed, waxed, armour all, cleaned the windows, vacuumed it and clean out where I put the muddy plants to take to the tip. @tyme Plus washed my other car. When I took my car out I realised the windows need to be redone and I forgot the tyres and rims plus the mud flaps. So now I feel like I failed because it isn’t perfect

As for tomorrow I have to bath Pix then wash her towels so I can pack the. Re-do my car and I still need to clean out the inside of the other one.Plus some cleaning around the house.

Hi @tyme

My SI has been high today but I am safe. I know where my mood is coming from. I had a really hard psych session yesterday. I know those sessions will benefit me in the long run, I just have to make it through the chaos that has unfolded in the meantime.

I don't keep a mood diary, but I do journal a lot. That really helps in getting my thoughts out of my head and onto paper.

Just having some company on here has helped and acknowledging that bad days happen.

Which day at you going again? @Captain24 You'll still have access to the forums, right?

I'm thinking about what an awesome time you will have. Beaches?

Thank you for letting the community know you are safe. It really helps so we don't stay concerned about your safety 🙂 @Snowie

It's so good that you journal and find it helpful. Do you ever read back on what you have written?

We are going on Monday @tyme. So I have so much cleaning to do Sunday. I like to come home to a spotless house. plus I’ll finish packing so it’s all done by tomorrow night. Then it’s only the things that I can’t pack until Monday morning.

Yes I’ll still be on here. I’m pro yogi f to really need it. I’m spending so much time with my parents and mum is going to be hard on Pix because Angel isn’t here to go.

Pix loves the beach so we will walk along it every afternoon. Plus there is a lot of walks along the waterfront. I’ll go to the beach every afternoon to go for a swim. So yes my week is all about the water! 😂

Do you like the beach and water?

@Captain24 I'm glad you have something to look forward too. Those beach walks sound amazing. Hopefully it is a good recharge for you, your parents and Pix. I'm sure she will love the holiday.

@tyme I sometimes read back what I have written. It does show me how far I have come in this journey, but at the same time how much more I have got to go. It really can be a mixed bag at times. Sometimes I write things down and throw it out too.