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I can’t cope

Captain24Senior Contributor16 June 2022, 9:48 pm AEST

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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Captain24Senior Contributor23 Oct 2023, 5:04 am AEDT

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I’m getting ready for work. I’m so tired and I just don’t want to go. I’m really hating on myself still. I feel like I just can’t. I wish there was some other way.

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BowSenior Contributor23 Oct 2023, 8:00 am AEDT

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You got this @Captain24 remember you only have 3 shifts this week and then you are heading to the beach!

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SnowieSenior Contributor23 Oct 2023, 11:21 am AEDT

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@Captain24 hoping work is going ok today.

You have something to look forward to which is great.

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Shaz51Senior Contributor23 Oct 2023, 11:28 am AEDT

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hello and hugs @Captain24 ❤️

one step at a time my friend

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Captain24Senior Contributor23 Oct 2023, 8:01 pm AEDT

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Thanks @Bow @Snowie @Shaz51

It was a really horrible day. I am so angry. Like really angry. I need to get it out. I can’t say in here though.

I got home and rang mum. Pixie has been really subdued all day at her house. It’s the first time she has been there all day without Angel for 4 yrs. Mum said it’s obvious that she is grieving. They are just trying to keep as normal a routine as possible.

Im angry but I’m also crying because Pixie is struggling.

I really don’t understand all these emotions I’m having. But I can’t cope with them.

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fluffylightSenior Contributor23 Oct 2023, 8:26 pm AEDT

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Hi @Captain24

Holding lots and lots of space for you 💛 Hugs, hugs hugs!

Please have a look at your email if you feel like chatting over there 💛

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JynxModerator23 Oct 2023, 9:20 pm AEDT

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Hey @Captain24 - I just tried to email you but kept getting an 'undeliverable' notification. I'm not sure why, seems it is being rejected as spam?

Is it okay with you if I post what I wrote here instead?

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Captain24Senior Contributor23 Oct 2023, 9:30 pm AEDT

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Hi @Jynx

I did respond to @fluffylight email. Not sure if you saw that.

But yes that is fine to post here

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JynxModerator23 Oct 2023, 9:33 pm AEDT

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Oh @Captain24 , it's so, so much for you to have going on right now.

I think it's really good that you can acknowledge that what you're going through is so incredibly overwhelming. It's coming at you from all sides - work, family, grief; no wonder you're full of so much raw emotion. Anger is a really tough emotion. I was gonna post this to the Toolshed at some point, but I'll share it with you here:

I also found this article about healthy ways to release rage. Emotions always deserve to be expressed, and when we do so it often helps them to move through, and out of our bodies.

Have you tried Griefline at all? it might be an option, considering what you're going through. The pain of loss, coupled with all the other stresses is bound to leave anyone feeling on edge. And in case your mind tells you your situation is not of the sort that needs that kind of support - grief is complex. Loss of a pet, loss of autonomy at your job, or a sense of loss of family ties that lift you up instead of putting you down, are all valid forms of grief.

I am glad you got some stuff off your chest. Do you feel like it helped? Will you be able to keep yourself safe tonight?

Warmest,

Jynx

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JynxModerator23 Oct 2023, 9:37 pm AEDT

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I just tried to send another email to you @Captain24 to test it - keep getting the response that it is being rejected as spam. I'm not sure why! But obviously we'd like to keep being able to contact each other via email - in the response I got about the rejection, this was suggested:

"Contact the recipient's email admin and ask them to add your domain name, or the sender's email address, to their list of allowed senders."

It could be something you can do in your settings? Adding us to your safe senders list or something? If it's too much for you to worry about right now that is understandable, but just flagging it with you.

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