I can’t cope

Hi @Captain24

What's happening for you? I think @Bow is right. It may be time to call for help if you are feeling this way.

What do you think?

Hanami

I called. @Bow @hanami. It just made me feel worse. I hung up on her. It was hard enough for me to call.

All she said was it’s a come down from last night and it’s just what bipolar is and that I should have stayed at work to see if it would distract me.

I had to come home from work because I was too distract and unwell. I kept forgetting and was following road rules instead of mine site rules. It a big blinking (my nans favourite swear word!) truck to be doing it wrong. I could seriously hurt someone or myself.

Hey @Captain24 . How’s things?

No good @tyme

I came home from work early. I just couldn’t do it. I didn’t have the focus for it.

I rang for help and got shut down so I won’t be ringing again.

I’ve been asleep all afternoon

Oh no @Captain24 . I'm so sorry to hear this.

I have to acknowledge that you were able to gauge that you were not focussed enough and so went home early. I'm sorry about the phone call. It sounds so invalidating.

I hope you can find something nice for yourself tonight. I'll be on the PCG soon.

I’ve had enough @tyme. I feel like I can’t do this anymore.

Did you get your unpacking sorted? How was BPD week?

Hey @Captain24 ,

I'm sorry to hear that. Would you consider calling 000 tonight? It sounds like it's come to a point where you just need that extra support. Time to review your meds. Time for a bit of respite. Time away from everything. Use it for healing. You deserve it. You've held on, and you've tried for a long time now.

As for unpacking? I actually haven't done anything since we last spoke. I reckon the rain puts me off. I went to my place tonight, but I didn't get any more stuff because it was raining. I just went there to take the bins in.

As for BPD Awareness week, I had a really good time in the city. We had a little conference where people spoke of their journey (lived exp and carers), clinicians spoke, the president of the Aust BPD Foundation was there, and a board member of BPD Collaborative. It was a very very fruitful time. I met quite a few people, and I was also given the opportunity to share some of SANE's current projects. It was such an awesome experience.

Thank you for asking.

I’m so glad it was an awesome experience for you @tyme. It sounds like you were busy! Good on you for sharing about SANE. I couldn’t do that.

As for unpacking it will still be there for when you are ready. If ever 😂

When does the guy move in?

I guess I could share about my experiences as well as SANE because I am so passionate about it. Don't ask me to do any other public speaking lol!!!

@Captain24 , the guy moves in on the 13th Oct. So Friday week. Someone has helped him get a pick and pack job. If he doesn't like that one, I've got another job lined up for him for roof safety.

I really hope he gets 'sorted' out. Every time I tell someone about it, they sort of look at me, "Are you serious?" They are worried for me.

I don’t do public speaking either! @tyme. I do have to do my talk I. The 29th of November though. I’m already freaking out! 😂

Im so glad he has a job. That has to be confidence boosting. It’s an a tea helping hand to move forward.

I get people saying ‘are you serious’ but to me, while it is a huge risk, if no one gives him a chance than he can’t turn his life around. You are such a kind and caring person .