I can’t cope

Hugs @Captain24 , hear for you my friend ❤️

Thanks @Shaz51

Feeling really alone. It’s my own fault.

I'm sorry to hear you feel alone @Captain24 .

It's not easy battling thoughts day and night. I can only imagine how tiring and lonely it must feel.

Anything I can do to help?

As for my day, it started off REALLY good. I was internally so grateful and honestly said to myself how good I felt. Then, by the late morning, I got ticked off because these people were being REALLY loud. I held it inside, held it inside, held it inside, then finally lost it. Stormed over to them and said, "What's wrong with you!?" I was so angry inside that I was shaking.

Of course the other person was peeved. In the end, I ended up saying sorry (not that I was sorry, but more that I wanted to be the bigger person). But I did tell them that they were making excessive noise and I'd had enough.

I took DEEP breaths, and meh? I don't care anymore. But yeah, that's the negative part of being hypersensitive to noise.

Im so mentally exhausted @tyme. I did really well at work. I covered it so well until about 2:30am on the last nightshift. I told them I had the bug everyone else had. I was actually the fifth person to go home. If I had of stuck my shift out I wouldn’t have hit the kangaroo.

I really don’t know what will help. I just feel so alone and isolated. I know only I can get through this but it’s a very lonely process. Adding on top of it is my obsession with making sure my numbers are less everyday.

I want to be able to support others on here but I just don’t have anything left in me to try to help.

Well done in standing up and letting them know. I couldn’t do it. But even for being the bigger person and apologising even though you didn’t mean it! 😂

Good on you for not letting it take over your day.

Hugs @Captain24 . I know you are trying. I hope you are okay after hitting that kangaroo. I can see how hard it would have been to stick it out all those nightshifts.

I used to be someone who held all my emotions in. Nowadays, I pretty much just let it out. And yes. I say sorry a lot - so 'I' feel better.... not them. And no, I honestly didn't mean it when I said sorry to the person today. At least they know I don't take crap next time 🙂

In other words, you do what you can to make you feel better. People usually think saying sorry helps the other person - no it doesn't. I think it's supposed to help you.

So yeah. I know you feel lonely and you find it so difficult everyday. As I've said before, I can't take the road for you, but I can walk alongside.

I reckon I'm going to knock off soon. I feel tired today. I hope I'm not coming down with something.

Hugs @Captain24

The roo bounced off the bull bar. It did go under the car when I kept driving. The front grill and the sensor box is all undamaged so I just have to check under it. Love my bull bar.

I hope you are just tired @tyme and not getting sick.

Have a good night and thanks for checking in.

Hey @Captain24

Just checking in. Hope you’re going well. Been a bit behind on my SANE. Just been a crazy period moving houses and changing a whole life.

Glad you’re still here and shout out to all the SANE community for being one of the best support networks I’ve come across.

Hey @PolishSausage85

Hope all is well.

Moving is stressful let alone changing your whole life too.