I can’t cope

Maybe you are utterly exhausted? @Captain24

I hope things level out soon. But then again, life might be boring! Jokes**

No, seriously, please take care. I'm with you at this time.

I'm been really good. Been having some amazing days and just getting things done. They haven't been amazing because of anything special... I just feel on top of things.

Hahaha. It would be nice to be boring for a while! Lol @tyme

It could be exhaustion. I woke up early yesterday after not much sleep. Did a lot of stuff and then didn’t sleep well last night. Plus the stress of looking after mums dog and dad’s biopsy is tomorrow. So there is a lot going on.

Im just trying to get on top of it before it takes too much of a hold on me. At least I’m being proactive!!

It’s so good that life is good for you. How’s the kids going?

Looking after mum's dog is stressful? @Captain24 Does it get along with Pix?

I wonder if your mum thinks the same. That Pix is stressful to look after lol

I hope all goes well with the biopsy. How long does it take for the results to come back?

Also, the kids are pretty okay.

The little one is sick. The middle one is really good. And the eldest? That's a different story. I'm concerned about her because her head is so scattered all the time. She can't focus on a single thing if she tried. I'm doing my best to be patient with her.

Yes it is! @tyme. She is on 4 different meds a day and has chronic heart failure and hasn’t got much longer. Plus she suffers from extreme separation anxiety!
Plus the 2 don’t get along.

Im not sure when we get the results. Hopefully early next week.

You’re really worried about the older one aren’t you? Just a few things you have mentioned.

Sitting here waiting for my CM appointment and I’m really scared of what the outcome will be.

She didn’t admit me! It was close but I still managed to get out of it. I don’t know how long I can hold her off though. She is trying to get me an appointment with the psychiatrist and hopefully I am in a better place by then as it will take a few weeks.

That’s good @Captain24 hopefully you can get an appointment soon

It’s been a really long day. Dad had his surgery but the specialist didn’t come and see home before he was discharged so we don’t know anything.

I was suppose to go to an event this afternoon that was on MH and I was supposed to share my story. I couldn’t go because the surgery was late and I still have mum and dads dog. I’m a little disappointed. I said I’d give my talk at the next one. The HR lady said she would stand with me to support me when I do it. That is nice.

I feel like everything is getting to me. I’m so tired and exhausted. I didn’t sleep much last night so I guess that’s not helping. That’s 3 nights in a row on minimal sleep.

I can’t even distract myself. I’ve been for 2 walks today and tried to do some diamond art with music in. I’ve tried watching movies on Netflix. Nothing is working.

I don’t have anyone I can call for a chat either. Everyone is busy being a Friday night. I don’t know what else to do.

Well I guess that’s my unload for the day.

Hey @Captain24 🙂

That's awesome you were going to speak about your MH journey. You know how validating that can be?

I've done is annually for a number of years now, and it's always so refreshing. Just to be able to see from where you came from and now, it is incredible.

I hope you get another opportunity.

Also, I hope your dad is okay. It must be tough. Will they drive back tonight?

It was interesting writing the speech @tyme. I have come a really long way. Even with everything that has been happening.

It’s been nearly 12 months since I started to get help. The fact that I was going to do it is a testament as to how far I have come. I’m pretty sure I’ll do it at the next one but it won’t be until around September.

Mum and dad should be here in about 15-20 mins as long as mum has driven sensibly and has dodge all the Roos.

How was your day today?