I can’t cope

Thank you for saying that @Snowie. If only it was the same irl.

My treating team don’t want me either. That was what pushed me over the edge.

I’ve tried a shower and I’ve tried diamond art but my tears kept falling on it. @tyme

I'm so sorry to hear that.

I'm curious about "They don't want me".... you mean they discharged you? @Captain24

My CM is back from holidays but wants the other CM to keep treating me. She told me that she would never give up on me but I guess I just got too hard and she doesn’t want me anymore @tyme

I have an appointment on Monday with the new one but I don’t want to go. She is only here on contract so she won’t be here for long.

If I hadn’t seen the psychologist on Thursday and drag up my past, I may have handled it better. Plus I’m trying to quit smoking and it’s ‘that’ time of the month.

Sounds like we can sum it up as "when it rains, it pours"... everything all at once. @Captain24

With the change of CMs, please don't let this keep you down. Yes, I acknowledge it hurts. I have also been hurt this way. Yet it is an opportunity for recovery.

In my mind right now, I can think of all the times I was turned away or handed over to someone else. I can still feel the sting right now as I sit here. I can see the room, I can see the person speaking, I can hear the words, and I can feel every stabbing pain the 'rejection' cause me to feel.

Yet look back, I can see that it was an opportunity to stop relying on crutches. It hurts to have crutches pulled away, yet this is perhaps what it is going to take to help you walk independently.

Try and not see it as being rejected, but more a part of 'growing up'.

Hugs to you.

Hugs to you @Captain24 so sorry things are so difficult.

Good afternoon @Captain24

Hoping today is a little better. Sending lots of love 💌💌

I’m still not coping. I have my new CM appointment in 12 hrs and I still don’t want to go.

I’m sitting here waiting to see my new CM. I don’t want to be here. I’m scared I’m going to break down.

Hi @Captain24

You can do this, I know you can.

Let us know how you go. x

Hanami

Hey @Captain24,

Well done on getting there. It can feel scary before we do something different or meet someone new. Take a few deep breath and know that we are here with you.