I can’t cope

@Captain24 💜💜

I just did lesson 3 of this way up. Maybe I shouldn’t have done it while I’m struggling so bad. It was very overwhelming. It’s so hard

Hey @Captain24 ,

I haven't read through everything, but how did your trip away go?

Is that a shark in the photo?

I’ve found it hard @tyme. While I’m out and looking at the water, I’m mostly fine. I did drive over a bridge and had thoughts that I shouldn’t have. It’s probably lucky I drive and not walked.

When it’s dark and I’m in the room. Im really low and alone. Its a real struggle.

Im thinking the getaway hasn’t worked but I may see a difference when I get home. Well I’m hoping so.

Nah it’s a dolphin. There is a heap of them here.

How have you been?

The getaway sounds lovely @Captain24 ! Yet I also recognise you have not been able to escape the thoughts.

I'm honestly hearing you. I somehow think this difficult period is a chance for meds to get sorted etc. I can see it's not because you are not trying strats etc.

I do see a brighter future ahead for you. I now it may be hard to fathom right now, but I can see it for you.

And the photos look so awesome!

Thanks for believing in me @tyme. I feel like a whinger. But I really am struggling and I’m lost and don’t know where to turn.

Thanks for acknowledging my efforts in trying to turn this around. I really appreciate that it can be seen that I’m doing my best and not just wallowing in it. I do want it to change. It might be better when I get home. Maybe that’s when the circuit breaker might feel real.

I don’t own and pjs that fit so I got some when I went shopping. I’m kinda preparing myself.

@Captain24 hoping you got some sleep last night and today goes well with Pixie.

Sending lots of love your way 💗💗

Thanks @Snowie @Bow.

I was supposed to go home today but I pulled into another coastal town and I’m staying here the night. It’s where I always come with mum and dad. It’s much nicer than the other place plus I know my way around better and there is more to do.

We should, hopefully, have a good day.

I hope today is going ok for you both.

Good luck with your Pdoc appointment @Snowie. I hope they can help you.

I really hope you make it to pick your daughter up in time @Bow. I read that you are not as sore so I’m hoping that’s a sign that it’ll get easier for you.

So glad you have booked in for another night @Captain24

I hope you are enjoying the time away. I'm sure Pixie is loving it.