I can’t cope

@Captain24

I hope today looks a little brighter for you.

Sending lots of love and strength your way 💌💌

Hey @Captain24 - How are you? Good to see you 🙂

I'm back from WA. I saw so many miners and straight away thought of you. I saw all the big machinery and vehicles! Wow!

Pretty shit actually @tyme I’m in a really bad place. I even considered hospital. But our hospital isn’t equipped.

I hope you had a great time. Thanks for thinking of me. It makes it real when you actually see it

Did something happen @Captain24 ?

Would you consider hospital as a circuit breaker? It sounds like things are going down down down....

I had a meeting with my CM yesterday. Neither of us can work out why it’s happened @tyme. She spoke to me after hours Monday night, which she doesn’t do, and organised yesterday’s appointment. She was suppose to be out of town doing her other work.

She talked a lot and I didn’t take much in. She asked if I was feeling any better and I said no. She asked if I was crying and I said I was trying not to. She then came and gave me a hug. She asked if I was safe within myself and my answer was no. But I wouldn’t act on it. I have an appointment with the psychiatrist next Thursday. She only comes once a week and is booked out for weeks.

I do have a circuit breaker home work. I have to book a couple of days away for just pixie and I. I’ll do that Friday.

So yes I just keep falling further down

ohh hugs @Captain24 ❤️

Hi mumma @Shaz51 - you always care for everyone. You are so special to us al.

@Captain24 - I'm sorry how hard it is. You deserve to have this circuit breaker. I'm so glad you are having a break. Wait it out now until your circuit breaker. I'm here to support you.

Thanks @Shaz51.

I’m going to try and book in in early May @tyme. The sooner the better I think. I’m not even able to explain how I feel. It’s kind of like my insides are a shattered crystal glass. I am so broken and shattered

Hopefully you can book something in @Captain24 .

Please know that if you feel the need, you can reach out to your treating team and other services. Even if it is a hospital stay for a few days just to 'reset'. It sounds so hard right now.

I'm hearing you. And what I hear is that it's even harder because you actually don't know where this is stemming from!