I can’t cope

That's a good start @Captain24 . Hopefully you will be more prepared to visit your folks.

I've had a 'lazy' day today. I did sleep but woke with a migraine. A headache is still lingering, but definitely much better than yesterday.

Hope you were able to sleep too @Captain24 @Snowie

Lazy days are certainly needed at times @tyme especially if you woke up with a migraine. I hope it eases, you get some sleep and tomorrow is a better day for you.

Sleep in here isn't the greatest, but I think that might be down to the mattress. Am missing my bed at home a lot.

I’m with @Snowie on the lazy day

@tyme. It’s a shame about the migraine maybe it’s a sign to take it easy for a little bit. Especially with the stress. I do hope your headache eases though. Have you got much on for the next few days?

I slept until 7 so that was good. Shame about the 4:30 alarm tomorrow morning though! At least I’m not dreading work this week.

I have to email both nurses to update them of my weekend. So it’s good that I’ve had quite a few positives. They both should be relieved and happy.

I'm going to take it easy tomorrow too @Captain24 .

As for your 4:30am alarm, I hope you have a good day at work tomorrow. Will it be a 12 hour shift?

Nothing beats the comfort of one's own pillow and mattress @Snowie .

That's okay. You are in safe hands. It may be frustrating and exhausting, but hopefully this is a circuit breaker for you.

Yeah 12 hrs shifts coming up! @tyme 2 days and 2 nights so it’s the good one.

I hope your niece and nephews let you rest. I really hope you can have a self care day.

Dinner was a fail. It was so triggering that it has left me in a not ok space. The food was good just a shame about the company. You could cut the tension.

Obviously they had been arguing before I got there. But they both put me in the middle of it. Both telling me how stupid and useless the other was. I know I’m an adult but I don’t need to be stuck between them.

It felt like I was a child again. I was that little girl that was too sensitive and took on board all the nasty horrible things that were said to me.

The sad thing is neither of them considered how I might feel being stuck in the middle.

Im having really unhelpful thoughts. I’ve been trying so hard and in under 2hrs it can be bought undone.

I hate it! I hate that I’m so sensitive! I hate my MI!

Hearing you @Captain24 . It sounds so draining to be caught in the middle of it.

It reminds me of my sister and her husband. They are constantly arguing. Not because they hate each other. They just both have very 'logical' brains and argue constantly. It's their way of getting their point across. When I'm around them, I feel so down inside.... like my insides are getting a wrangled up or something. It's hard to explain.

They don't put each other down or anything, they just keep contradicting each other e.g. the will argue why something black is not black. Like seriously.....

It makes me not want to be around them. They are both so stubborn.

So I can sort of feel what you have felt tonight being caught in the middle of it.

Maybe you acan have an early night seeing you need to be up by 4:30 tomorrow morning!

Thanks @tyme.

I just nearly done something that I would regret. I’m so stupid.

I am going to bed so I stop being stupid.

I hope you can get some rest

Sorry I was doing sort of ok.

Thanks

Please take care and I'll speak to you soon.

tyme