I can’t cope

I’m sitting at the hairdressers getting my hair done. It should be a good feeling. But I can’t allow myself to enjoy it. I don’t feel like I deserve enjoyment

Good morning @Captain24 I'm sorry that you're feeling that way this morning, I'm here with you and it's completely okay to feel that way. Be kind to yourself today and take one step at a time today.

Do you have much planned for today?

Good morning @amber22. Hope you are well this morning.

I just can’t shake this mood. I hate it and I hate myself.

I will be at the hairdressers until just after 12.. then I have washing, housework and the lawns to mow. With no motivation and no care for life how am I going to be able to do it..

That is a really challenging thing to feel @Captain24 , I totally get that. The best thing for me when I am feeling that way is to distract myself from my thoughts. When I am cleaning or even if I am not motivated to do anything but lie on the couch, I pop my headphones in and put on a podcast so that my brain is focussing on something else. I try and make the podcast something really interesting so that I don't even think about anything else. Would that be something you might like to try?

I have never actually listened to a podcast and don’t really know how to get them @amber22. That’s how useless I am! I’m really badly down on myself aren’t I.

I can try music when I get home and hope that it helps me a little. I need to find motivation from somewhere as it has to be done.

I’m getting really agitated sitting here waiting for my foils to be ready. I still have to sit here for another 2 hrs before my hair is done.

Not useless at all - I actually only recently discovered them myself! I always thought you had to download them from somewhere but they are actually just on youtube or on spotify! You should give it a go if you feel up to it, but music sounds so great too, even popping on a show in the background of cleaning or doing something helps me to not think as much. I think I've probably rewatched all episodes of friends 10 + times because of this very reason!! @Captain24

I can have a look later and see what I can find. @amber22

I love friends. I loved it from the time it started.

Other than work do you have much on today?

It is so great isn't it - who is your fav character?

Not too much on today, just trying to take it slow because I feel really exhausted today, I haven't been sleeping well at all 😞 @Captain24

I’d have to say Rachel. I even had the haircut. Lol. Who is yours?

Is something on your mind? Is that why you haven’t been sleeping well?

Oh Rachel is the best!! I also always related to Monica a bit @Captain24 LOVE that you had the Rachel haircut!!

I think I am just feeling a bit burnt out recently and not giving myself enough balance. When I get to bed I just can never stay asleep, I'm always waking up so many times during the night.

What are you getting done at the hairdressers today?