I can’t cope

Hey there @Captain24

It's totally understandable that you are exhausted. Be kind to yourself.

💓

Thanks @hanami

It did make me smile @Former-Member. She was a tough old bugger. They don’t make them like her anymore.

When we first put her into hospital for her dementia I was the only one the nurses would let in as she was calmer with me. I had to try and stop her from escaping and she hated me for it. She told me she had poisoned her cardigan and made me touch it. Because I touched it I was going to die. The funny part is she said ‘when you die I’m going to send your mum a leaf. You’re not worth a flower’ That’s now my line I love it! It makes me laugh when I think about it.

I have so much I need to talk about and work through. Hence all the random

posts. I feel like I’m being annoying and stupid though. I’m not the only person to ever lose someone. It’s been hard as the last time I lost someone so close was 20yrs ago. I’m hoping my nurse can help me sort it out a little this afternoon.

I feel like I’ve been so selfish through all this and have only thought about myself.

How have you both been?

@Captain24, I can understand why you might feel that way, but I don't think anybody else here sees it that way! All your forum friends are here to support you on this because we care.

However you're posting and talking and processing is welcome ❤️

I'm ok. I have a lot going on in my personal life (mostly good, just a lot) so I'm feeling very tired. I think I need some quiet time this weekend just to focus on some hobbies. That usually makes me feel pretty rejuvenated

Good morning! @Captain24 I am sorry to hear that you aren't feeling great today, please take it easy and only do things one step at a time, be kind to yourself today you've had a lot on your plate recently and it's probably all catching up on you. I am glad Pixie was there for you when you needed last night ❤️

Hello! @Snowie @Bow @Birdofparadise8 + everyone else online! How are you going this morning?

Quiet time sounds like exactly what you need. @Former-Member. Don’t let yourself burn out. What will you be crocheting on the weekend? What else do you do?

Thank you I just don’t want people to think. Oh here she goes again.

Thanks @amber22. How are you?

I am doing okay today, feeling a bit tired and my back is still really sore @Captain24 Trying to take it easy today. No not at all!! We would never think that, you are so strong for going through what you are ❤️

❤️ I feel worried about that for myself sometimes @Captain24. But I think a lot of are here because we've had similar experiences and we "get it".

Yeah, I think I'll do some crochet or knitting. I might even do some machine sewing. I have a lot of projects I want to work on hehe.

What about you? have you been any of your hobbies like diamond painting? Hows pix?

Sorry about your back @amber22. Back pain is the worst. I’m going through it now too. I find the most helpful is physio. Sometimes the only way I can find relief is to lay on a hard surface and make sure my back is flat with my knees bent and feet near my bottom.

I’ve been doing a little diamond art @Former-Member but I’m really struggling to stay focused on it. I’m hoping my appointment this afternoon will help me regain some positive focus in my life. Sewing sounds good. I could make a cushion for Pixie. I was going to make it before I moved that was 18 months ago. What kind of things do you sew?

Yes it’s good that we ‘get it’ it seems to help so much. I’ve got a guy at work that’s going through a really tough time. I told him to call me as I ‘get it’ and don’t want him to end up where he was many years ago.

My GS peer worker is unwell and has cancelled my welcome call tonight. That’s a shame right now.