I can’t cope

I feel like I’m headed for a complete breakdown

Hi @Captain24,

I'm are really sorry to read things are so hard for you at the moment. I am also very sorry to hear of your grandmother's passing. I understand how hard and confronting arranging a funeral can be - my father passed in 2021 and it was a lot, particularly whilst also trying to grieve the loss of my dad.

I am going to send you an email so please respond when you can.

Sitting with you and understanding how hard things are for you right now.

Big hugs,

FloatingFeather

@Captain24 💗💗

I think everything is ready for the family to arrive tonight and finally the funeral is organised for tomorrow.

I should be relieved but I feel like I’m in a pressure cooker about to explode.

Now that I have time to stop for 30 mins my stress levels are worse than before. Having my mum and my brother together in the same room is terrifying me. They both put me down constantly.

I don’t know how I’m going to get through the next 2 days. I don’t know if I want to get through. I’m really scared and my anxiety and depression is out of control.

Oh @Captain24 , just think that this will all be over super soon. You've done an amazing job and your grandmother would be proud. That's the main thing!

Sending hugs and best wishes for the days ahead

Hanami

Thanks @hanami. Nan would be so proud of me. She always was. I was the favourite and we had a special bond.

The funeral is scaring me too. I’m scared that I’m going to cry and to me that’s pretty embarrassing.

I'm sorry you are going through so much @Captain24

Please remember we are here for you if you want to talk, sit or even just to get some things out.

Sometimes just writing things down and knowing someone is there for me helps.

Here for you 💗💗

@Captain24 Hey my friend, would be so super heavy for you today, and sounds like family hasn't necessarily made it any easier on you. I agree with @hanami though that your grandmother is getting the send off she deserves. Breathe through it where you can, yeah? Here for ya 💜

Thanks @Snowie and @Jynx There’s so much I need to get out but don’t even know where to start. I think my journal entry will be really long for the next few days!
Knowing I have the support here is helping. After the way I scared myself last night I’m really going to need you guys in the next few days. I have also booked an appointment with my nurse to help me especially if I do have the breakdown I’m headed for.

Maybe imagine how your nan might have comforted you, if she saw you crying @Captain24?