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I can’t cope

Captain24Senior Contributor16 June 2022, 9:48 pm AEST

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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tymeModerator04 Feb 2023, 9:43 pm AEDT

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I had a bit of a headache yesterday, so I had a sleep in today @Captain24 . I feel very well now.

How did you go navigating work today @Captain24 ?

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Captain24Senior Contributor05 Feb 2023, 8:46 pm AEDT

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I am NOT ok. The pressure of everything has gotten to me. I have a hard to control urge to hurt myself

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Shaz51Senior Contributor05 Feb 2023, 9:02 pm AEDT

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Ohhh @Captain24 , hugs my friend

Breath

Sitting with you xxxx

Are you home now

@moderator

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Captain24Senior Contributor05 Feb 2023, 9:37 pm AEDT

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Thanks @Shaz51

I am home. I’ve just gotten off the phone to SCBS. I’ve taken prn so I’m hoping that that settles it down.

Thank you

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tymeModerator05 Feb 2023, 9:41 pm AEDT

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Sorry to hear it is so hard tonight @Captain24 . Was it because of work or the funeral?

Sitting with you.

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Captain24Senior Contributor05 Feb 2023, 9:49 pm AEDT

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I just feel like everything has gotten to me. @tyme Nothing is organise for the funeral as in the readings, the music, the eulogy, the wake. I think mum thinks I’m going to get it all done tomorrow. I CAN’T. Plus I have people staying tomorrow night and a bbq tomorrow night. I need to get so much done at my place plus I have a therapist appointment. I can’t do it all.

There is a lot going on at work to with my work colleagues. It’s not a happy place to be in right now. I’m glad I’m not there for the 2 nights.

It’s like everybody needs me and needs me to be strong but I’m not. I’ve got nothing left to give to anybody. I feel like I’m on the edge of a complete breakdown.

The urge to hurt myself is so strong. I need pain but bad pain.

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tymeModerator05 Feb 2023, 10:09 pm AEDT

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I'm hearing you @Captain24 . It seems like there's so much to do at this moment.

Are you able to delegate any task to others such as looking for photos, typing a eulogy (if you need to) etc? And other funeral preparations such as meeting with the directors etc?

I hear there is a lot to do and it is bringing added stress.

I acknowledge this is so hard at the moment. However, I also realise that if you were not busy 'preparing' for the funeral, you may struggle emotionally because of the loss. I hope this doesn't sound too harsh.

But there IS a line that can be drawn. If you can't do it all - say so.

Your safety is of utmost importance.

I'm logging off now, but night mods will be on.

PLEASE take care and speak up when enough is enough.

hugs

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Captain24Senior Contributor05 Feb 2023, 10:11 pm AEDT