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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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I’m sorry @MissGremlin You don’t need this.

Yeah. I’ve been getting up and down. Part of my physio exercises is walking the dogs! Since they don’t walk far and it’s under an hour.

Bugger about the cold I’d do the routine anyway so you have peace! 😜

Another one bites the dust! Have you shared a pic that I may have missed or you haven’t done it yet? I really need to get stuck into mine. I think I have one full size section that I’m working on to do and then a smaller section and it’ll be finished. Hopefully I can get it done before the other one comes. Sitting at the table to do it may get a little difficult!

Are you planning on doing some of out now or just when you’re in bed?

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@Captain24 you have nothing to apologise for sweetheart, I'm glad i can be here for you and I'm always happy to listen ❤️.

I'm glad you've been getting up regularly, walking the dog's is a good idea aswell as it's gentle exercise and you'll get some sunshine too.

Haha oh tempting but I also don't need the cold worse.

I just shared pics of the last 2 that I've finished. You're close to being finished it then, it might be hard to do it with your back the way it is. You could use your back brace and see how it goes though.

I'll just get one all set up now so that it's ready to start tonight, I don't have time to work on it now.

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Thank you. I know you are struggling badly and I’m just dumping more on you. @MissGremlin

I thought the walking was good. Instead of running at the start they can slow down with me instead of me keeping up with them. I wanted to do it to try and help me feel better anyway.

I just went and had a look but they weren’t up yet. I’ll check again in a minute. Yeah there’s not much. I just need to get stuck into it. I will use my brace. I had it on at the start of shift this morning. I probably should go and get it. Hopefully I can manage to do it. I’m planning on not spending any time during the day in bed. Other than Wednesday but I’ll be getting home at 6 in the morning. Sleep is allowed that day! 😜

I didn’t realise how much went into setting them up. Especially when there is lots of colours or the bags are really small and there is several bags of the same colour.

What size is this one? Square if round?

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@Captain24 you're not dumping anything on me, you're sharing how you are feeling and I'm here to listen ☺️.

That sounds like a good plan and I'm glad that it's something you want try to do aswell.

It might be good to put it on, especially while you're sitting down for a while at a time. See how you go with spending time out of bed, it's ok if you need a nap during the day too but I'm hoping that being up will help things be a little easier to manage for you. Wednesday you're definitely allowed to have a rest 😂.

I've just set it up and labelled the bags and put them in the holders that I have. It's a round one and only 30×30cm. Trying to get through some of the ones I have here lol.

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When I found my window I was walking the dogs and getting in the sun. So I’m hoping that I am able to push myself that far and do it. Even if it’s only one or two days, at least I would have done it. @MissGremlin

I might wander out there and get it. Some people that I like have just come in.

I just remembered that Wednesday is Remembrance Day. So I won’t be able to go bed until after 11 when it’s finished. So it’ll be a later sleep. But I’ll be able to finish my whole list first.

The one I took away is 30x30 and round. I really don’t like the round ones. I find the square ones easier.

The pictures look good.

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@Captain24 maybe it will help you to get back into that window. Even if you only manage one day that's still a huge achievement.

I'm glad some people have come in that you like, it will be nice for you to have some company there for a while.

Oh that's going to make for a long day but at least you have your list to do.

I like both, the round don't take as long or as much focus which is why I like doing them at bedtime, the square ones are good for detail and I like doing them during the day when I get the chance to.

Thankyou sweet ❤️.

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I’m hoping so. At some stages I can see a bit of a change and other times I don’t see it ever happening again. @MissGremlin

My friends have gone now! I manage to chat and join in conversation and was included!

It is but I can’t miss it. I’ve worked on it the last few years. Still be my first one in a while. It only goes about 30 minutes then I’ll jus go straight home to bed.

I find the round hard but it’s more the canvas. It’s all painted in the canvas but the dots can be three different colours in one colour in the canvas. Did I make any senses? At least in the square ones all the same colour dots look the same colour all the way through. It probably what you get use to. You did round for ages before you tried square. I’ve only done square until now. But it could also maybe be the colouring of the canvas.

I love how you have the set up. Everything is all organised days and nights.

Do you have one set up for days? Or struggling too

2 HOURS to go!

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@Captain24 you'll get there again, it's just going to take time.

That's so awesome that you got to chat and felt included ☺️.

I'm glad that this time you're not working so you can do it.

I completely understand about the dots and the colours, I think it's cos they are cheap so only run on a small colour range.

I love it being all set up, it makes it easier. I haven't got one set up but that's cos I was covering books and then I did some colouring yesterday. Maybe I'll set one up over the Christmas break to do.

Woohoo, not much longer to go. Sorry for the late reply, I was doing dinner.

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I will. The rational captain knows I will get there. That voice is loud but the other voice can be more forceful. @MissGremlin

Oh.. I never thought of that. The only good ones I’ve done a square and the only round ones are the cheap ones! I will bring one tomorrow night but my boss also said I can go and sit in my car if needed! That was his way of not giving me permission to go and have a nap! My boss has been pretty good about it all just the people that deal with the injury aren’t!

How did the colouring in go? Was it ok or not?

I have to not have one at Christmas, my house is Christmas! But I’m getting one for Christmas that is going to be really hard to do but will be amazing.

Is Christmas a hard time?

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@Captain24 completely understand.

Actually makes me want to get a better quality round one and see what it's like. Your boss sounds understanding unlike the other people you have to deal with. Taking a diamond art in sounds like a good idea.

It was ok, i was shaking so it was hard and I only did a little bit.

Can't wait to see the one you get for Christmas that you'll be doing, I'm sure it will be amazing.

I really don't like Christmas, mainly cos I can't afford anything so it's pretty much just a normal day and it's different now being that noone comes over.

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