I can’t cope

T/W mentions suicide

I need my muddy Pixie today.

I’ve just gotten off the phone to HR @tyme. I return to full duties next Friday. So I still have to hide until Sunday night!

They want to do up a medical return to work plan with me when I get back. Apparently someone that works there in underground ended their life. So I guess they are putting extra plans in place to ensure my safety.

Im relieved and happy about going back.

However it hasn’t lifted my mood. So I’m a little scared as to what my mood is. My nurse has told me to monitor myself closely. I didn’t tell her how bad it is though.

Anyhow..how was your day.

That's what I thought - it sounds like they are taking extra precautions @Captain24 - which if they didn't, they'd be liable.

If you think about it from HR and management, having someone end their life on their site is a huge thing. A lot can happen.

As for your Pix, she's just too innocently gorgeous! Such a cheeky little grin!

And my day today? Once again, I'm really buzzing and somehow loving life. Has anything special happened? No, not really. I'm just really grateful for the things I have. Every time I think about what I DO have, I go into this gratitude space and it sort of means I have no room left for anything else.

Tell me, what are you grateful for today?

Hey @Snowie @creative_writer

Just letting you guys know. I heard from HR and get to go back to work next Friday! Thanks for your kind thoughts through this mess

I so happy that you are loving life @tyme. You totally deserve it.

What am I grateful for today???

Pixie- always Pix

Keeping my job

My nurse and I went for a walk today. Added bonus my back didn’t hurt. It was nice to enjoy the sun and the heat.

The weather. I laid out in the hot sun.

The lady at the frame shop (neither of us like each other!) for her help in framing my 2 completed diamond arts.

Having my own house.

That’s it I think.

So glad you have heard from HR before the weekend @Captain24

Something to look forward to.

Such good news @Captain24 !

Come on, think think think... tell me 5 more things you are grateful for!

I’m grateful for @tyme

I had the motivation to cook a decent dinner and prep for next weeks nightshifts

My dishwasher after cooking! Lol

that I don’t have 3 night shifts to do

that I got to enjoy the beautiful weather instead of being asleep

I guess being strong enough to get through this mess. It’s been 4 weeks and it’s only just really starting to get me down. I actually had a friend say she wouldn’t have handled it as well and she doesn’t have a MI

and for you guys on here

I over excelled! Thats 6

You are definitely excelling, because now I want another 4! What 4 other things are you grateful for?

By the way, this was a skill I learnt with one of my therapists... but we started with 10!!! 10, 9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1!!! And it wasn't gratefulness either.

Once we finish this, I'll tell you what I had to do for my task! @Captain24

@tyme

4. My family, I guess, for helping with Pix

3. the holiday in 4 weeks

2. that I enjoy my job

1. the opportunity given to me to travel to Spain 11 yrs ago.

@tyme

3. My MI has re-instilled my faith

2. My 2 closest friends

1. a good paying job

This is getting so hard

2. My MI! It has shown me how strong I can be

1. How much I’ve grown as a person

1. Being alive. I guess.