I can’t cope

I’m sorry they didn’t help. I thought that after everything you have been through they might actually find a way. It’s actually easier to get into community health here it seems. Unless I was just really lucky. Not that they were much good anyway @MissGremlin The only way I’ve had proper help is to pay through the nose for it. Which is why right now I don’t have any.

Just let them out if you need to. I know that it’s not very comfortable though.

Im still in bed.

@Captain24 it hurts cos I told them what would happen if I didn't get proper help but they just don't care.

It's not a comfortable feeling and i don't want to be vulnerable right now, well more than I already am.

I'm glad you're resting in bed, you deserve it. I've just been sitting here doing diamond art.

I can understand that. @MissGremlin

I’m guessing you aren’t alone so that makes it harder. I hope your diamond art is going better today.

I have something in my mind. But I can’t tell anyone. It scared me. I am safe

@Captain24 I'm alone, plans changed here so now it's tomorrow.

Oh sweet, i can only imagine what's in your mind and I'm sorry that it's scared you. I'm here with you ❤️.

Well if you need to cry no one will see you. I know it’s hard. I’ve been crying most of the day that I’ve been awake for. @MissGremlin. I’m not happy about it.

I need to talk about it. I’m not looking at acting on suicide. That needs to be clear. I just can’t as here is totally not the right place. I’ll get in trouble. I am safe

@Captain24 i know you might not be happy about it but it's also ok to cry.

Is there a way you can talk about it with keeping it in the guidelines? This is sometimes when anonymity sucks 😂.

Random question have you ever thought about joining any mental health groups on Facebook? There's some good ones that offer support and you can talk about things with others that understand.

Reread that first sentence! @MissGremlin!!!!!!!!! 😜

No not really. I guess I can probably talk about it later. I’ll do my best to not.

Not really. I’m scared that something may come up on people’s Facebook feed that I’ve commented or posted on something. Even private groups. Some of mums stuff has come through on my feed. NO ONE needs to know what’s going through my head.

@Captain24 haha you know what it's like, it's easy to tell others but doing things yourself is a different matter 😂.

Well know that I'm always here for you ❤️.

I can completely understand, there's a few really private groups and they can't be seen to anyone but I know sometimes Facebook likes to throw suggestions even if you look things up.

Want to see what I've been building lately?

Show me… @MissGremlin

Im going to get up and have a shower and get dressed. Incase I need to go somewhere

@Captain24 having a shower and getting dressed sounds like a good idea but where would you need to go sweet?

Let me know when you're out of the shower and I'll share them ☺️