I can’t cope

@Captain24 I really hope they can help to get me support.

I always have a bag packed just in case cos of my heart, but I was able to get a few extra things and get dressed. They couldn't come inside cos of Casper but I left the door unlocked and told them I wouldn't be long. I've had that before though when they wouldn't leave me alone at all while getting things.

I'm sorry that you were left so alone though, that's just horrible. I appreciate you being here so much, you're the only person I've got to talk to.

I hope so or if the hospital can @MissGremlin

At least you were ready and have things to do. I just sat with nothing just my phone.

Are they sensible at home?

Hey @Nala2022 Are you around today?

@Captain24 that would have been so hard. I've now got 2 IV lines in as they need to put multiple things into me.

They are thankfully.

Hi lovely @Captain24 I am, I've just been catching up on posts, and I had several notifications to get through

How are you today? 💛

I’m really sorry you’re going through such an incredibly difficult time @MissGremlin. You’ve tried so many things to get through those urges, and reaching out for support was another really important step. I’m glad you’re safe for now. We're here for you lovely 💛

It was. I’m actually traumatised from it. I have a fear of ambulances and an extreme phobia of having them called again. They did get called another time but it was just the police and I was asleep when they came. Installed them into letting me stay as I had to get up for work in the morning. They were here at around 12 @MissGremlin

At least with 2 IV’s and pumping things through you should start to feel better after everything that has been happening over recent weeks.

What are you doing right now activity wise?

I just remembered to put my washing on again. Hopefully it reaches the clothesline today!

Im ducking to the chemist. I’ll check my phone when I get there and I’ll check it when I come out. I’m not leaving you alone. It’s only like a 10 minute drive but dad said the town is really busy so it could be more like 15.

Im glad that they are sensible and look out for each other. That’s a testament to you

Thankyou @Nala2022 sweet, it's really hard being in hospital. I'm not in a good way at the moment, they are having to put things into me to counteract what I've taken. My heart rate is really high and not beating properly either. It's all very scary.

How are you doing sweet?

Hey @Nala2022

I’m pretty good at the moment just really concerned for my friend.

How are you?

Im about to head out for about 30 minutes. Would you please have the time to spend with MissGremlin. I will be back really soon. I just don’t want her on her own as I know what it’s like?

@Captain24 I also have an extreme fear of them due to a traumatic experience. It's horrible as they are meant to be there to help not scare us. I'm glad they let you stay, it's been that way most of the time for me but this time I had no choice.

I hope the trip to the chemist goes ok sweet, no stress if you can't check in, I understand.

I'm playing cards at the moment.