I can’t cope

Thankyou @Nala2022 sweet ❤️.

I think I’m getting sick

So I’ve woken up with an extremely sore throat. I have a headache, my body is aching especially under my arms. I’m also either shivering or sweating. I’m hoping it’s just a cold. Influenza A is going around at work. I have to work 2 nightshifts feeling like this! Yay…

I look at my report for my ultrasound I had. On top of some fancy words for fatty liver which says mild liver disease, I also have fatty pancreas. If I don’t change my life now I’ll end up with pancreatic cancer.

It’s all a bit of a shock. I don’t speak to my doctor until Friday. It’ll be interesting to see what he has to say. My guess is lose weight and exercise more. I can’t afford a gym membership and the gym brings a whole new level of anxiety. I’ve got lawns to mow every break from work so that counts as exercise. I will walk try and the dogs every morning but snakes bring anxiety too. There is just so many of them and they are everywhere. One child got bitten and the kids cycle track last year.

Im feeling really tired, a little stressed and a little overwhelmed. It’s quite a lot. There is a lot going through my head.

Im still not sleeping very well as I just can’t get use to any of these masks for the sleep machine. They keep me awake or wake me up during the night. Then I’ll take them off and try and get some sleep. So to get sleep it’s a risk of dying, to improve my sleep means hardly any. Go figure.

Hello @Captain24

I don't know what to say. I am sorry you're feeling stressed and overwhelmed. It's understandable. It sounds like you have a few things al going on at once. I imagine you'll feel a bit better after seeing the doctor on Friday and talking through your results.

Gah! Sorry about your sore throat too! That's so annoying and draining. Lemon and Honey?

Unfortunately, I reckon Spring often comes with viruses and things. I feel like they get blown around on the spring breeze!

I hope you've had an OK morning and are treating yourself with gentle love and kindness.

You deserve that...

And despite it all and in the face of it all you show up here so resilient..doing your best.

Sending you my best..always.

HhXx

Thanks @hopeful_hannah

Ive had a reasonable sleep this afternoon for work tonight. I waited a different mask. I still don’t really like it but I think it’s better than the one she wanted me to wear.

My cold feels worse and I’d rather stay in bed. But work has to happen. My head is pounding and my body is aching and it hurts to move.

I forgot to buy lemon when I rushed into the supermarket this morning. I didn’t write a list! I was going to take it too work.

At work our truck cabs are air tight so that the coal dust doesn’t get in but that means germs can stay in there!

I hope you are well and life is treating you ok

Hey @Captain24!

How are you?

I am catching up on messages, as I was a way for the last week and a half on a holiday (first one since 2023!).

What a beautiful message from your psychologist. How did it feel to receive such positive feedback about your growth? 😻

Also, I am curious to know how work has been going and how you're managing your thoughts and feelings/practice of detachment when you're getting feedback? 💛

Hey @AuntGlow

Thanks for checking in

Yay!!! A holiday. Where did you go? What did you do? Do you feel relaxed? Tell me all about it.. or what you want and can obviously.

Im doing ok. I’ve had a bit of a wobble but I think I’m getting through it.

I called in sick for work on Friday as I just couldn’t face it and then I rang my boss and asked if I could have the next 2 days off on annual leave for mental health reasons but he said he wasn’t able to approve that. Work hasn’t really been that bad. They have put me on a simple job with my sore ankle. The guy I’ve been working with has been pretty good even though I haven’t done anything right! I just have tonight to go and then I have 5 days off.

i was emailing my psych about appointment times and that’s just what she added to the email. I really do have a good one. It was really nice to be so acknowledged. It felt good that she is in my corner cheering me on. I couldn’t even reply to it as I just didn’t know what to say. I was overwhelmed but in a massively good way.

How are you going now that you are back?

Hey @MissGremlin

Thinking if you

Hello @Captain24, thankyou sweet. Thinking of you too ❤️.

I’ve just gotten up. I didn’t really sleep well. I’ve been up and down quite a few times. I totally need my medication to sleep!

Im just sitting on the lounge doomscrolling. Trying to tell myself that I really need to clean this house so I don’t have much to do tomorrow.

I really do need to go and get the washing off the line though. Something I can tick off my list!

I’ll give myself a good stern talking to and go and at least do something.

Im not looking for any responses just talking out loud so to speak.