I can’t cope

@Captain24 have you done any diamond art today?

No. I haven’t @MissGremlin 

Today has been a bit tough. I’ve struggled a lot. It’s now nearing bedtime and I really don’t want to go to bed. I’m struggling with my sleep apnea machine and it’s stressing me. I haven’t been sleeping overly well for the last week or more. But when I wake up early in the morning it means I have to go to work. I just don’t want to face it. I have al those default thoughts in my head. They are only thoughts but I got rid of them. I’m feeling like a failure. I haven’t tried to look after myself but just failed at it. I don’t know how much doomscrolling I have done today. I have just failed. I’m still feeling really down and out. Everything I have tried today has be worth trying but hasn’t lifted me any. Is this the eclipse I was warned about. It just feels all too much and a lot right now.

@Captain24 I'm sorry things are feeling so rough right now sweet. I know going back to work seems to make things worse for you which is understandable. Struggling with your sleep wouldn't be helping and I know the machine would be hard to get used to. You haven't failed though sweet, just cos those thoughts have crept in it doesn't erase the progress you've made. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️

Hi @MissGremlin, how are you and how did your doctors appointment go? 💛

@Captain24 that’s such a beautiful email from your psych. It must feel really good to have someone who has seen you through the harder times recognise just how much you’ve changed and grown.

And I love what they said about the ups and downs not being able to erase what you’ve achieved. You’ve clearly worked really hard to get to where you are, and it sounds like that confidence is starting to show in so many different parts of your life. You should definitely be proud of yourself! 💛

Morning @Nala2022, I'm so unwell at the moment. I can't say much on here though as it would breach guidelines. I really need support and I'm not able to get it. My doctors appointment didn't really help with anything. I'm safe at the moment, I've just made a cuppa.

How are you doing sweet?

I’m really sorry you’re feeling so unwell and that your appointment didn’t give you the help you were hoping for. It must be really frustrating and exhausting when you’re needing support but struggling to get it. I’m glad you’ve made your cuppa and are taking things slowly this morning @MissGremlin

I hope you’re able to connect with someone who can support you today, especially with how rough things have been lately. Please keep looking after yourself and reaching out if you need to

I’m doing okay, thank you for asking. I just finished my cuppa, I might stand outside for a bit, the sun is out today 💛

@Nala2022 it's definitely so frustrating and exhausting, I'm not sure what to do really. I just finished my cuppa and now I'm laying down again, I'm not able to stand up for more than a few minutes (I'm safe).

Thankyou sweet, I've tried to reach out many times but I'm left feeling like I don't matter.

Glad you're doing ok, standing in the sun sounds lovely. It's going to be 22⁰ here today so I'll see if I can get a bit of sunshine aswell at some stage.

I can understand why you’d be feeling like you don’t matter when you’ve reached out so many times and still feel like you’re not getting the support you need. You do matter, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now @MissGremlin

It sounds like your body really needs you to take things slowly today, so keep resting and be gentle with yourself. If you’re still unable to stand for more than a few minutes or you start feeling worse, please don’t hesitate to seek some medical help again 💛

It's going to reach 22 degrees here too! Definitely try to get a little sunshine when you’re feeling up to it 😊