I can’t cope

Reason 285 for not having kids!

The horrible kid across the road was screaming for nearly 2 hrs. The mother was screaming at her as well. They’re always screaming.

They have just gone out. Hopefully they stay out

Maybe I’m just extra irritable. Maybe it’s because I’m feeling pretty rough, alone and forgotten today. Maybe it’s the stress. I’ll be glad when the day is done. Maybe I need to take my own advice to stop this spiral

@Captain24

Hope your day is going ok

Oh @Captain24 your first line made me laugh. Fortunately for me none of my kids were screamers. All four of them were pretty good. I see some kids and think omg!

Do you have something nice you can do for yourself to help feel better? How was your weekend?

Sending hugs

Hanami

Hey @Snowie. My day is okish. Hope your day is going well.

The kids scream all the time! @hanami and both parents scream at them. Apparently they are moving out soon. I hope so, I definitely won’t miss them!

I’ve just put all my irritability into mowing 2/3 of my back yard. I can’t finish it because I’m too sunburnt! Hopefully it settles down and I can finish it tomorrow.

Now it’s time for a cool shower. It’s 33 degrees here and I’ve been out in it for 1 1/2 hrs.

My weekend was good. I just try and keep busy so I can forget about the whole work scenario.

How was your weekend?

Im concerned. The psychiatrist that work has organised to assess me wants access to my records from my GP and my psychiatrist. Im scared and don’t know what to do. I just can’t catch a break in this mess. Im hating myself and this stupid illness. Will my life ever get easier. What is the most annoying is I’m more stable than I have ever been

Hey @Captain24 I think it's pretty common for health professionals to share information. What are you concerned about?

I’ve been stood down from work pending an assessment from their psychiatrist @Paperdaisy. If I don’t pass I don’t think I have a job. If I am cleared Im still not sure in my job. Im not sure I want them having too much of my information from my treating team. It has all my suicidal moments and extreme depression. I don’t want to be assessed on what has been. I want to be assessed on the now

I hear your concerns @Captain24 I can't imagine they are allowed to share any of the details with your work. It would just stay with the psychiatrist for the purpose of their assessment. You could check that with them before you allow it. That must be hard. What's the alternative though? It's worth a try isn't it?

I have just organised a meeting for tomorrow with my nurse @Paperdaisy. Hopefully she can help me with what is shared. I have to sign it, as like you said, it’s better than the alternative. I don’t want to have the 2hr appointment not knowing what he knows about me. If that makes any sense.

That make sense @Captain24 Hopefully you can get some clarity.. in the meantime set it aside and try and distract yourself?