I can’t cope

@AuntGlow I've been trying to focus and listen to what my mind/body needs recently. It's not always easy when there's so much happening inside.

The connections that I have here are so important to me and are invaluable with the support they provide.

How are you doing sweet?

I do feel safe and alive @AuntGlow It’s really weird. The whole experience is weird and comfortable but uncomfortable at the same time.

I’m actuallly glad it is being recognised. I’m so proud of myself and want to share it. I really wish tyme was around to see it. She told me it would happen. I really appreciate that you guys can see it and proud of me too.

Id like to be able to help. She deserves to feel this too. But it’s all just the little things that may only take seconds but move into longer seconds. I’m actually glad that I have given her a tiny glimmer of hope. That makes me feel really good. You guys said that there is hope and it will happen but I thought it never would as everything was always so dark. But for MissGremlin she has seen me at my worst and what is happening now. She can literally see that it can happen.

I honestly know that tis is possibly short lived and next time it’ll be longer but I know it’s here and how good it feels that I’m hoping I keep the light if things go badly backwards

It’s so much fun playing with them and they just love it. I love making my dogs happy and seeing them happy. @MissGremlin thats something no one can take away from me.

@Captain24 oh I'm hearing you. I love watching Casper run around the house playing, you can't help but smile at their silly antics that they get up to.

Pix is really cheeky and she plays with a toy, leaves it in the middle of the living room and then gets another until the is a few. Then she runs and jumps through them all @MissGremlin Jett usually has a little toy in his mouth and if he wants Pix to play he shoves it in her face! Then they play tug of war!

@Captain24 haha awww. Casper dives into his toy tub pulling out so many until he finds the one he wants 😂. I loved when I had the 3 girls and they would all play together, the tug of war was always great entertainment then they would all snuggle up together like this. (There's pics attached)

Aawww that’s so cute @MissGremlin. The 3 of them run amuck at mums house. She said it drives her nuts. They all play together and run around together. Then they will eventually collapse and go to sleep. Pix on one bed, Keiko on another and Jett curled up with one of them!

@Captain24 hehe it can get a bit full on when they are all running around but it's also beautiful memories to treasure in years to come.

They are pretty quiet when they are at my place but it’s still awesome to see their relationship! @MissGremlin

My two have just had a cuddle I couldn’t get Pix without me in it but here is my little snuggle buddy

@Captain24 waiting for your picture to show up.

I just finished another section of my diamond art and now I'm laying on my lounge for a while. I could feel things crashing a bit, but I think it's cos I'm so tired (I'm safe).