I can’t cope

I did read that and replied to you about it last week @Captain24! Or at least I thought I did...

Congrats regardless, what progress!

Sleep apnea is hectic, but hey if having this knowledge helps you to get more sleep then it's probably a really good thing to know! I think the treatments and the machine thingies are really effective, and having more sleep means fewer occasions where the tiredness turns so easily into overwhelm! I hope this means good things ;)

And no, no letting down. I am on forums for shorter blocks these days, plus sometimes lose notifications when I get too many of them at once. Busy little bee that I am, it means I can't reply as often. Alas! But our focus is and always has been on the members. This space is for all of you, after all ^_^

I just went back and checked and you did. Im really sorry i missed it. You and i posted at the same time which is why i probably dod. Im really sorry and i really do appreciate the cheers. @Jynx Its actually good to be acknowledged for positive stuff as well

Im up for learning more about the sleep apnea as, like you said, anything that may help understand my sleep is a good thing. I’m hoping I don’t need a machine but sleep is really important for staying awake during nightshift! But the less tired I am the better I can get. Maybe make it into the window for longer at a time.

Sorry, I have a little RSD at the moment. A few things that are going in has left me felt rejected. Most of it at work. It’s also making me question everything but also scared to reach out in case it happens again.

I know you are busy and I get that, I miss you being able to give advice. I actually want some from you but I know it’s not possible anymore. I want lived experience advice.

I hope all is going well in your world and you are slowly and carefully getting through ‘that’ room.

Hey @MissGremlin

Im guessing being in here is to hard for you at the moment. Just know that I’m thinking of you and will be around when you are ready. No pressure.

Thankyou @Captain24 sweet ❤️. I'm sorry, I'm trying but things aren't good here (I'm safe). I'm about to head out for a bit and not sure when I'll be back. I hope you have a good day, will you be doing your diamond art today?

I’ll be thinking of you while you are out. @MissGremlin It doesn’t sound good.

Im sorry that things are so hard right now.

I have my appointment with the chemist at 10:50 and the my psych at 2 other than that I don’t think I’ll do anything else other than my ironing this afternoon. I don’t feel like it and that is completely ok.

I haven’t decided with to do a diamond art or a 3D puzzle. Or maybe both. Those are my biggest decisions for today! What ever I chose I’ll be doing it with you in mind.

If you can’t be here that is totally ok. I’m here for when you are ready and able to.

I’ll post to you how my appointments go just so you can read along and know that you are not forgotten or excluded. I DO NOT expect any responses. Just do whatever you can do for yourself to make things easier.

Im sitting there beside you

@Captain24 I hope your appointments go ok for you sweet.

I'd love to sit and connect a bit later whether you do diamond art or a 3D puzzle. I've been working on the 2 kits but the custom colours don't seem to be right and I don't know whether to contact the company or not.

Thankyou sweet, i still care about what's going on for you and I'm sorry that i haven't been able to be here.

They will be fine. I’m not worried about them at all. I’m actually looking forward to my psych and what she can help me with and answer some questions. Plus see what comes out of the sleep apnea test. @MissGremlin

We can do that. I’m happy to be here for you I just will be unavailable 2-3. From 11:30 onwards I’m all yours.

Yrust the process. It doesn’t always look good sitting in front of it. You need to stand back a bit and look at it from more of a distance.

It’s ok that you can’t be here. I’m totally fine with that. My world is a little low, I think I have slipped from the window a little bit I’ll have support with that this afternoon!

I just seen this on Facebook on a bipolar page. It feels a little real right now. I’m starting to fall out of the ‘shoulds’ That is something to be proud of.

@Captain24 I know how helpful your psych appointments are so I'm glad you've you that today.

The colours aren't right though, like the orange is brown, it's all completely off.

Try to remember that there will be ups and downs in life but it doesn't mean you're going backwards, it's just the roller-coaster of life. Sending hugs sweetheart ❤️.

Just check in with them then. @MissGremlin For me the colours aren’t always similar but it’s worth following up if you’re unsure.

Ive written some notes for my psych and I’ve had a few realisations this morning so I’m adding it to that list. I know that there is going to be downs and lots of them and really dark. At this present moment I’m seeing things I’m doing differently and taking a lot more notice. Just a long slow roller coaster of a road. But in thing is that I can see the light and have been in it a little.

You know my wish of going to sleep and not waking up? It’s actually a big possibility! I stop breathing for over 60 seconds at a time! I actually need a machine with those stops even though I fall into the mild category. The moderator starts at 15 and my results are 14.8!