I can’t cope

I'm going to take my nieces and nephew to some library events tomorrow. They have an author talk, art/sculpture activity, and a robotics event. So that's pretty much the whole day used up. Perhaps my sister and I will take turns to look after them. @Captain24

Do you have anything planned for tomorrow?

That sounds good @tyme. I guess there is a lot of things to do during school holidays.

Ive got my GP appointment to get my fit for work certification and then an appointment with my nurse. Other than that I’ve been sorting through all the rooms in my house re organising them.

This is my linen closet. I don’t have a before pick because it was a disgrace.

That's sooo great! @Captain24 !

I really should go to my other property and do some gardening. I am waiting for the 'right' weather though. So I need rain to soften the ground, and then for it not to be too hot when I go....

Totally procrastinating, but I need to do some at least.

My godson and his dad just left here @tyme. I had them do the edges and mow the lawn. That was a bit lazy of me but it took the 2 of them 2 hrs. The edges were really bad. My yard looks snuck now. I just have to weed the garden beds. I’m all good with mowing but suck at the edges.

Yeah @Captain24 - that's my issue too! Weeds in the garden bed.... actually, it's not even weeds. It's grass growing in the garden beds! Do you just pull them out? Or do you poison them.

Mines grass too @tyme. I just pull them out. I don’t know what else to do with them.

I think I have a problem… I’ve been up since 5 am and have been on the go since then (except when I had to rest my back for a bit) and I still can’t stop!!

Sounds like emotional regulation (or dysregulation?) @Captain24 .

For me, when I'm elevated, I'm aware of this, so I have to purposely bring myself back to an equilibrium whether it is exercising, breathing, reading etc.

When I have an awareness that I'm down, I also need to purposely pull myself up to an equilibrium by making sure I connect with people, make a phone call, browse through photos on my phone etc.

So I guess the first step is having an awareness so then we can help our own bodies?

I guess it’s something else I need to learn. @tyme. some days I think I’ll never get better at this!

Im just making a hot chocolate so I can try and sit down. Try and watch some tv. Hopefully that helps and I’ve just been breathing. My heart rate is now under 100.

Thank you. Sorry for being difficult again!

NO, you haven't been difficult. You've been a pleasure to converse with @Captain24 .

I'm so glad you have been able to connect with people on the forums, myself included.

I see you have a bright future ahead.

I'll catch you tomorrow sometime 🙂

Thank you.. @tyme

I feel like I am starting to make connections but sometimes I feel the need to pull back from others.

Hope you have a good night.