I can’t cope

Thankyou @hopeful_hannah ❤️.

It is @hopeful_hannah. It’s really hard. I am proud of myself for walking the dogs and grounding in the sun. It’s much needed self care. Oh and I DO NOT exercise! So it’s a positive. I’ve got a lot done but in my mind it’s not enough. It’s not good enough and I should keep pushing. I’m a failure for not doing it. All that is running through my head. Then being so tired on top of it isn’t helping at all. So I can see positive and feel it but everything else is negative and taking it over.

This is the kind of thing I do when I’m in a really bad place and pushing myself to hard. I just scrubbed my shower and shower screen to within an inch of its life. Sounds good… I did it last week and it was perfectly clean! That’s the kind of stuff. When I clean the laundry after I wake up I’ll move the dryer and washing machine out and clean behind them. It was done a couple of weeks ago. See I do ridiculous things and that’s when I know it’s bad.

I just have to dry my hair and wait for the sheets to finish then I might try and get some sleep. See what happened when it comes to that time.

I don’t need a crisis service but it’s bordering on thinking about.

How did you find out? @MissGremlin

Im sorry she is in there and you have no idea why. It could be possibly be something simple.

@MissGremlin Yes I can understand how stressful that would be. I have a 19-year-old as well. Please don't beat yourself up, there is no need to feel guilty. They are independent at that age and there isn't much we can do except be "there" when they need us.

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@Captain24 I hear you! Sometimes balance is hard hey? Time for a rest soon?

At least she rang you. That’s a start maybe you will hear more as she knows more. I’m hoping you do. @MissGremlin Juat take some slow deep breaths and feel Casper breathing. Run your fingers through his hair. Even sit outside on the grass (if you can) with him. That felt grounding to

me this morning.

@hopeful_hannah it's just horrible not knowing what's going on. I've got to somehow manage going to the shops soon and my head is all over the place (I'm safe).

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@MissGremlin Understandably. I second @Captain24 suggestion above if poss.

We are here with you. Sending our best..

It'll be ok.