I can’t cope

That’s fair @MissGremlin it was just an idea!

I’ve just put the pot on to boil so I can throw the pasta in. It’s getting cold here! Another frost in the morning I think!

It’s that healthy tired. You know the one where you are tired because you have been in the sun and done a few things and relaxed. It’s like it’s going to be a deserved good sleep kind of tired. Not the depressed laying around escape the work kind of tired.

This feeling of different stuff all at once is a lot to deal with. My brain is running in circles trying to decide what to feel.

A hot chocolate and diamond art sound good.

@Captain24 I appreciate the idea sweet.

We're definitely well and truly into winter now with the frosty mornings.

I'm glad it's that healthy tired, I'm hoping you can get a really good night's sleep tonight.

Can imagine it would be, when there's so much happening at once it's hard to separate the feelings.

It’s really weird to be sitting between both places @AuntGlow. It’s like my brain is confused and working overtime. It doesn’t know what to feel. It’s going around in circles.

It is a shift but I’m not sure what the shift is. I don’t think I have felt this before it’s usually one or the other at varying times through the day not both at once.

Im not really good at goals!!! 😂 But I can try and see if I can allow it to happen more. I’m trying to talk myself into taking the dogs for a walk in the morning but it is going to be cold! I was also thinking about the fact that I sat on the grass in the sun and I thought maybe I could do that and try and read a little bit of a book.

Connection has always been a big thing and that’s why I got so distressed when the forums weren’t working. It was like I had nothing and I had had to cancel my psych appointments as I just didn’t have the money with Pix’s vet appointments.

How are you going to go about changing your ruminating? Just curious.

Have you started on your diamond art yet? What size is it? @MissGremlin 

@Captain24 not yet i haven't, it's 30×30cm. I'm sitting on my lounge frozen at the moment (I'm safe), still haven't made my hot chocolate.

Have you made your hot chocolate yet? @MissGremlin

Hows it going?

Ive just cooked dinner ate, unpacked the dishwasher and repacked it with what I just used and washed up the stuff that can’t go in there. Super impressed with myself. Now I’m sitting back down at my diamond art.

@Captain24 i did manage to make it and i drank it.

Things have really spiralled here and I'm struggling alot. I'm safe, trying to focus on my diamond art.

I'm glad you had dinner and you did amazing to get everything washed up and packing the dishwasher. We're doing diamond art together again.

We are! @MissGremlin

Lets focus together… how many colours are in this one?

@Captain24 this one only has 15.

Same. @MissGremlin Ive just started in the letter F and there is quite a few. It’s orange!