I can’t cope

I thought public was free? @MissGremlin

I took my meds and I took all of them! It was a relief knowing that I didn’t have to miss out on another day!

It’s been really unnerving. I hate going out the front. I try and do it when I think he is at work or sleeping. He even offered to do my lawns for a favour. I won’t be sad to see him go

I had butter chicken and some ice cream. I’ve just fed the dogs and I’m really full so I think a hot shower and bed is needed!

It was good to do some diamond art but I really don’t like those things the dots are in! Maybe I’ve gotten spoilt with the zip lock bags. I do see why @tyme does one colour at a time! This one is only 20x20 and mostly black and yellow. So I thought about it! 😂 I don’t like dealing with those dots!

@Captain24 unfortunately it's not I've been told.

I'm so glad you've been able to take all of them, I know how bad it can be to go without them even for a day.

It would definitely be unnerving. I'm so sorry that you've been made to feel so uncomfortable in your own house/yard. Hopefully you get a lovely neighbour move in there.

Butter chicken and ice cream sounds yummy. A shower and bed sounds perfect. Hoping you can get a good night's sleep.

Haha the bags they come in are silly, I always put them into zip lock bags. The small ones are easier to do by colours but the big ones section by section. I've found a few square dot ones that I'm hoping to get when I can, just for the extra detail.

A friend of mine went to the community health part of the hospital and had the appointment for free and went on the waitlist and it didn’t cost them anything other than waiting. @MissGremlin

Ive just had my shower and gotten into bed. After sleeping most of the day I actually am tired. So hopefully I’ll sleep! See what happens. I could be talking to you at 4 in the morning! 😂

Where do you get the zip lock bags from? I need them, I’m not coping with the other ones and it’s making it hard to do. You must be nearly finished yours?

@Captain24 the dentist appointment that I had was free but there's costs now for the treatment, it's possibly also cos I need to go under and it's high risk, I really don't know.

I'm glad you're tired, hopefully that means a good sleep. The sad part in that is that I'll probably be awake at 4am 😂.

I only have one row of sections left after I finish this one but it's slightly bigger sections. I get them from the reject shop usually.

Another night of dozing off and then waking up in a panic after having nightmares 😞. It's so frustrating that this happens every night but it feels like it's getting worse even with medication that's supposed to be helping to reduce the nightmares. I'm also in so much pain from the tooth infection which is making it hard to actually sleep.

I'm scared that if this medication doesn't work then I've got nothing, I'm just stuck like this. I'm finding it really hard to keep pushing through, I'm tired of suffering, tired of never getting relief, I truly feel so broken. I'm safe, laying in bed, snuggled up with Casper. Just needed to get things out and to not feel so alone.

That sounds incredibly exhausting, @MissGremlin. Waking up night after night from nightmares, while also dealing with the pain of a tooth infection, would wear anyone down. It makes sense that you're feeling discouraged when it seems like you're not getting the relief you'd hoped this medication might bring.

It's understandable to worry about what comes next if something doesn't work as expected, but it doesn't mean you've run out of options. Sometimes it takes time to find the right treatment, and it's important that your prescribing doctor knows your nightmares are continuing so they can review what's been happening with you. Medications can be really tricky and fiddly. Finding the perfect combination that works for you can sometimes be a long and tiring process (oh how I wish there was just one magic pill that fixed everything zero side effects)

I'm really glad you let us know you're safe tonight and that you've got Casper curled up with you. I hope you're able to be gentle with yourself as you get through tonight, and that you can let your treating team know how much you're struggling with both the nightmares and the pain. You don't have to carry this by yourself.

Take care ✨🌻

It’s 4 am and I’m awake! @MissGremlin 😂

Im tired and hoping I doze off again. But I’ve mostly been dozing all night. I just can’t get comfortable.

I hope you aren’t awake and that the nightmares have settled down a little bit

@SunsetSunrise I managed to get a block of 3 hours of sleep which I haven't done for a while, I've still woken up after a nightmare/panic though and my tooth pain is really bad.

Unfortunately this medication is a last option for me, my body doesn't tolerate medications. I'm only managed by my doctor, there's noone else on my team. We've tried so many medications before this but I've had severe side effects that have even left me in hospital and they usually make things worse for me. So if this medication doesn't work then I'm back to being on nothing, not being able to have hope for any relief from the nightmares.

I'm safe, going to take some more pain relief and snuggle with Casper. Guess I've almost made it through another night of hell, counting down the hours until the sun rises again.

@Captain24 hoping you've dozed off again sweet. That's frustrating when you can't get comfortable, i usually doze on and off but that's cos of nightmares.

I at least got a block of 3 hours of sleep before having a nightmare, that's more than I've had for a while now. This tooth pain is ridiculous though and the pain relief only works for so long. I'm safe, going to take some more pain relief and snuggle with Casper.

I’m glad you got a block of 3 hours. @MissGremlin

I did doze off. I was awake a few times but when I looked at the time and it was actually 4 I had to post after saying I would talk to you then! 😂 My watch said that my sleep was restless and will affect my day!

The tooth pain must be so hard. I know when I have severe back pain it’s all I can think off. I know it’s different but that’s all I usually get that’s severe. At least you got a little bit of sleep though. I know it’s not much but it’s at least something.