I can’t cope

I really need more sleep especially after crying @MissGremlin

Dad was joking about doing something for me not the money. But it didn’t come across that way over the phone. Mum had it on speaker. I told her the whole money thing is getting me down. I’m not usually honest with her about how I’m feeling.

I’ll have no money with the next pay either but at least I won’t need petrol in that pay and can just eat out of the pantry as I’ll be on leave from work.nI will have a psych appointment that I won’t be able to afford but o think she will let me pay it on the Friday. She’s not going to want me to miss another one.

Im sorry you are having those thoughts. It’s definitely not ideal. Not to start the day. Sis you get much sleep? I hope the lawns don’t take long.

This cold is lingering. It should be finished soon.

I’m going to go and have a sleep and hopefully get some. I’m feeling really really down. Really sad. Just want to keep crying but I won’t allow myself again.

I haven’t heard from my psych so I guess she hasn’t got my email or message. I didn’t days ago so it’s not my fault if she doesn’t receive it before my appointment. I tried. I feel like I’m letting her down. She will understand but it’s not a good thing to cancel.

My body has nothing. It’s just worn out and depressed too. I’m not having thoughts as such just really extremely down. Can’t function down

@Captain24 I'll reply properly in a bit as the ex is here at the moment.

But I hope you can get some much needed and deserved rest. Sending you lots of love and hugs sweetheart ❤️

@Captain24 hey hunny you know what i really should get into this diamond art! what with you and @MissGremlin enjoying doing it so much i really need an artistic outlet :)

You so should my sweet @Bunniekins! It's so good to have an artistic outlet ☺️.

@MissGremlin you are right of course :D xx

@Captain24 really appreciate your kind words, your support, and your encouragement. It means a lot!!

I think it has definitely been a therapeutic process, it is a way to reflect on identity, strengths, passions, and what's truly important to me. I hope the same for you or for anyone who needs to do a big exodus of their personal belongings at any point!!

I've always known that you are a caring person, I don't even think it's that 'deep down' - I think it comes out in spades every time you are chatting to folks on the forums. You may not always be the kindest to yourself, but your capacity for kindness knows no bounds, and thus I have faith that in time you will continue to learn how to turn that kindness inwards as you progress with your recovery - I just know it! ^_^

That’s ok @Jynx you need support too.

When I moved into this house I wanted to start fresh. I had a single car garage full of stuff at my old place so I had to go through it all. There was lots of stuff from the past. I’m a different person now so I really didn’t need most of it and was never going to wear or use the stuff. So I kinda get it but my identity hasn’t changed. You have so much more to work through.

Im actually trying to be kind to myself today. I didn’t sleep well last night for some reason. I got an email back from my psych about me cancelling my appointments and she was ok. I feel really really down and have spent most of the day in bed. Not sleeping though 😢. I am seriously stressing about money. Pix has sent me broke. But my way of trying to be kind to myself is understanding that these are extenuating costs that couldn’t be planned for and so far I have done well to cover what I have. Over $15000 since February. Does that count? Plus if I needed a bed day today then that’s ok?

Sounds like a good idea @Bunniekins come join us on the diamond art connection. I find it usually helps me keep distracted. Depending on how bad things are as you have to focus but not concentrate too hard.

Sorry I have been AWOL @MissGremlin i just wasn’t up for it and spent all afternoon in bed as well. Iv hardly had any sleep though.