I can’t cope

@Captain24 I'm really hoping I can.

Oh sweet know that you're definitely good enough, in fact you're amazing ❤️.

I'm glad you're in bed and I completely understand that feeling of utter exhaustion. I hope you can fall asleep quickly sweetheart, be gentle with yourself.

I'll do my best to look after myself and rest as much as I can. It's cold here today so a perfect day to snuggle on the lounge with Casper and my wheat bag.

I’m sitting on my bed trying to get dressed @MissGremlin. I slept well but still not enough. It was only 6 hours. I know you wish you could get that. But it’s just not enough.

Did you get any rest?

@Captain24 I'm sorry it wasn't enough sweet, even though it's 6 hours doesn't mean it's quality rest. Hoping you can find the energy to be dressed, you've got this ❤️.

I didn't get much rest at all, I kept waking up every few minutes and had to go out earlier than expected.

I got dressed and I’m at the smoke stop. It is freezing!!! Like feels like 2 degrees . That should wake me up! @MissGremlin

Im sorry you didn’t get much rest. I hope you sleep better tonight. I’m wishing it for you.

@Captain24 brrrr very chilly, you did so well to get dressed sweet.

I'm really hoping i can sleep tonight. I only have one row of sections left on my diamond art now.

WOW!!! That white truck is MASSIVE! Do you drive the white one or only the yellow ones?

It's like a mini city there. I'm totally astounded. @Captain24

What's been happening? Sorry I haven't be around.

Hey @Captain24 ! Yes it's been freezing here too! I haven't even checked the temperature @Captain24 , but i know it's cold. Are you still unwell or are you working?

Awww re your psych @Captain24

What she said is totally along the lines of what I've always said - that you are so easy to work with. It's always good to see you working on your recovery - as hard as it may be.

And yes! Pix is still costing you thousands - but you wouldn't have it any other way 🙂 she's still your baby.

I just got sent home @MissGremlin. My boss called me into the office to do my performance review and sent me home as I don’t look very well. I’m a little, well a lot, relieved. No I can take pain medication that shows up in a drug test and hopefully it gets rid of my headache for good!

I hope you are asleep.

Hey @tyme

The big white one is a digger and I can’t drive them. Those yellow trucks are a different brand to mine. They are a CAT and I drive Komatsu but they are the same size. We do have the big white digger though and the dozer. I told you they were big!

I’ve just been sent home from work as my boss saw how sick I actually am. He was shocked and said I had to go. I told him to do my performance review first so he did and organised for me to be dropped to my car. So I’ve just taken script only pain relief and about to go to bed.

I thought of you instantly when she said that! My recovery has taken a backwards step. I’m once again in a bad depression. Not as bad as it has been though. I’m still doing everything the same though. I emailed my psych and told her and she said she was hoping that the good bit would last longer. She also said that I was different now and hopefully can handle it better and that it will come back again eventually. Even the words I’m using are different. In stead of saying ‘I HAVE failed’ I’m saying I FEEL like I’ve failed. So that’s some improvement from before. At least she expected this, I didn’t but knowing that she did makes me feel a little better about it. She said it’s the course of bipolar and both will happen again and again until the good times out last the bad times.

Im so exhausted though that I feel like I can barely walk. I could just sleep all day and all night. I have absolutely no energy to do anything. But I have to as life goes on. I’m wondering if this is where my migraine has come from or whether it’s my iron. I have to have fasting blood tests to test for a lot of things to see if there is anything medical.

How are things with you? It’s good to see you