I can’t cope

Do you do video chat or just online chat? @MissGremlin

yes I got it wrong. I was think 1927

I tried to cook apricot chicken but that was a big fail. It all stuck to the pan. Now I have to clean it all off. So now I’m just boiling some pasta with cheese.

Something is better than nothing.

@Captain24 only online chat. But that's only cos there's disabilities that prevent other forms of communication.

Oh that sucks. My frypan is no longer non stick so everything gets stuck to it. Pasta with cheese sounds yummy.

Very true. I'm just doing my bedtime routine more.

I hope it goes well. @MissGremlin

It’s shit. I think it was the apricots that stuck. But it’s all burnt and gross after 5 minutes of simmering. Next time I’ll just buy a jar of sauce instead. This is why I don’t cook! 😂 It was suppose to feed me for the next couple of nights though!

Hope it’s going smoothly for you. I’m starting to get tired now.

@Captain24 there's nothing worse than when I meal fails. That is hard that it was meant to be for a couple of nights.

I hope you can get a good night's sleep sweetheart ❤️

It’s a pretty bad trigger for self loathing. Just something else I can’t do right. Now I have no meals and that’s because I’m a failure in the kitchen. Well a lot of things. @MissGremlin

Are you going to try and go to sleep early?

@Captain24 i can understand the self loathing but these things happen. Try to be gentle with yourself sweetheart, you can cook things very well just this time it didn't work out.

I'm not tired and don't think I'll be able to get much sleep anyway. Will just see what happens.

I can’t actually cook unless it comes from a jar. I am useless and I can’t follow a recipe. To many steps and I get confused. @MissGremlin

I’ll give you some of my tiredness! Not much sleep because that’s what’s happening or because of the anxiety?

@Captain24 it's still cooking even if it's following recipes from a jar. You make lots of different meals sweet and i think to do amazing.

I just don't sleep much at the moment at all. At least I'm not driving there tomorrow so I'll be able to just chill in the car. My body has been in a constant state of panic for the past few days now, it's really full on and physically exhausting.

I've just sat in bed and I've got my diamond art in front of me.

I’m glad you’re not driving travelling can take it out of you as it is. It’s harder if you’re already tired. Just chill and chat! @MissGremlin

Im sorry you are still having so much trouble sleeping.

It’s good you are in bed and doing your diamond art.

I’ve just fed the dogs and I’m about to go and have a shower.

@Captain24 yes we'll be chatting and listening to music. We've been making a play list together.

Feeding the dogs and having a shower sounds perfect. Hope you can get a good sleep and that work goes ok for you sweet. Sending so much much and hugs ❤️.