I can’t cope

I am glad you have that support @Captain24 It makes things so much easier when we can open up to someone and even better when they don't judge us.

I love movies based on true stories too, especially based around World War 1 and 2. Also like autobiographies.

I think if I open up then the floodgates will open and I will say and do things I shouldn't. I know its not healthy to keep things bottled up but I see no other choice.

She has no judgement at all @Snowie.

What I did was really inappropriate!

I’m not really into war movies even though my family has been involved. I do want to watch The battle of Long Tan though. It apparently mentions one of dads cousins fiancé at the time and it didn’t end well. I didn’t for dads brother either but he wasn’t in that part.

You have to do what is best for you and what keeps you safe. Is there any self care you can do tonight?

I'm glad she has no judgement @Captain24 and that she listens to you.

I just like those type of movies but even at school I was interested in history and things like that. If I didn't become a teacher I would have become a historian!

I haven't got any plans for tonight but think I will be in bed early again. My sleep schedule has been messed up lately so going to bed early helps a bit.

That’s awesome. What grade do you teach? @Snowie. I have a great respect for teachers shaping kids for the future.

I teach secondary school @Captain24 so ages 13-18. I mostly teach maths and science, especially chemistry and biology.

I haven't taught for awhile due to my MH but do want to get back into it when I am better mentally.

Secondary would be hard. My favourite subjects were maths and science. @Snowie. My favourite teacher was my maths teacher from years 8-10 and I still speak to her 30 yrs later.

I knew I liked you but I do even more now! 😆 It makes my job look boring.

I hope you get you MH sorted so you can go back. To me, it’s such a rewarding job.

Thanks @Captain24 I do love teaching

I am going to head to bed now. I hope you get some sleep tonight and tomorrow is a good day for you.

Thanks for keeping me company this afternoon. It has helped me.

I hope you can sleep well @Snowie. It makes a difference.

Thanks for helping me tonight as well!

My nurse said to me today that I was amazing. I don’t really understand why. I feel like I keep failing them with my out of control mood swings

After a big session and a big day yesterday I’m starting to fall. I have no energy and absolutely no motivation. I feel like I have nothing to give. I’m physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted. I just have nothing left.