I can’t cope

Sitting with you @Captain24 xx

I’m hoping just being able to talk will help. @Snowie.

Hope you are ok?

Hoping that for you too @Captain24

Hoping you can get your words out is goes well.

Struggling with some thoughts still, but at least I got some things done today. Will take that as a win.

Definitely a win @Snowie. Even one thing counts.

I’m sorry about those thoughts. I’m sitting with you

Thanks @Captain24

Sitting with you too

So I had an appointment with my GP and that went pretty well. Then I had an appointment with my nurse. 1 1/2 hrs it went for. It was really tough. I feel so drained now.

@Captain24 I am glad you appt. with your gp went well.

That must have been a very draining appt. with your nurse. I hope you were able to get something out of it. I guess one way of looking at it is that they didn't just rush through it.

Is there something you can do this afternoon to relax a bit?

I got so much out of it @Snowie. I have a bit more understanding of my trauma and how it affects me without me realising. She brushed over the top of my trauma because she doesn’t think I’m ready to unlock it. But she did check when I was leaving that I was ok.

I have to let go of some of my perfectionist traits. But she help with when and how.

She is concerned how rapidly and drastically my moods change and is thinking that it could be the constant med changes. She thinks that putting me in hospital will be detrimental to my recovery. Apparently the psychiatrist put in my notes that it was an option.

I’ve just mowed the lawn as a distraction and now I’m going to have a shower. I’ll make something for dinner and then sit on the lounge and watch a movie. Hopefully that will keep my head in the right place.

Anyhows. Enough about me. How are you doing today

I'm glad you got a lot out of it @Captain24

My psych brushes over my trauma too, she doesn't think I am ready to unpack it all and I agree with her.

It sounds like she is really invested in your progress and wants to make sure you are ok. I am happy that you have found such a safe space to express your thoughts, wants and needs. It really does make a difference when we have good supports.

Sounds like you have a nice relaxing night ahead of you. What sort of movies do you like watching?

Not doing well today but the day is almost over thankfully.

I am really lucky @Snowie. She is amazing but I do meet her half way. I haven’t held anything back. She knows the details of my SA and the things I have done in a hypo. Even the stuff I’m ashamed of. She knows a lot of my childhood trauma but not in detail.

Im getting into emotional dramas and true stories at the moment. Basically what ever Netflix recommends.

Sorry you’re not doing well. I’m here to listen if you would like to chat. If not that’s ok.