I can’t cope

Hey @Captain24

hearing that your feeling down today, me too a bit after yesterday. What are you up to today? We went to the Boxing Day sales this morning, then I did some exercise and now I am just relaxing in my room with the AC on. It’s a hot one here today!

Hi @Bow

it’s hard when you have a full on day isn’t it. Maybe as we recover we will handle it better.

Did you find much at the sales? I may go into town tomorrow and have a look but there isn’t much open here.

It’s really hot here too. I was going to mow the lawn but I’m not tanned enough to not get burnt so I laid in it for a little while. Then I thought id have a nap and it was a good thing as I was spiralling but that has now stopped.

When do you get your daughter back?!

Yes @Captain24 hopefully as we recover we get better at handling things.

Glad that you have stopped spiralling. Naps are good!

yes I got the Peter Alexander chrissy pj shorts that I wanted (got the top before Christmas) also got a new summer dressing gown. They have such good Boxing Day sale! I also love cotton on Boxing Day sales too- got a few things from there too. Shops were super busy by the time we left.

daughter will be back after dinner. She just does day visits still. Maybe she will request to try a sleep over again over the holidays. Thinking of some activities that we can do over the holidays together.

I can’t deal with this anymore. The mood instability is out of control. I just want to give up. But I’m too lazy, fat, ugly and stupid to do anything about it. So I guess I’m safe.

Hi @Captain24, I understand you are struggling with your mood instability and finding it hard to deal with the situation. You are showing a lot of strength by posting and thank you for mentioning you are safe. I know it can be hard to appreciate yourself in this situation but hope you can be kind to yourself.

If you need some additional support, please reach out to any of the following services:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

Samaritans: 135 247

If in immediate danger: 000

@Captain24

Can understand what you are going through.

I hope today goes a little better for you.

Not really @Snowie but thanks

Hope today was ok for you

I’m feeling very alone. I’m sick again. For the last six months I’ve been sick or injured. My MH has been a mess. I’m sick, I’m tired and I’ve had enough.

Hi @Captain24

Hoping today has been ok for you

Thinking of you xoxo

So 2022 hasn’t turned out how I thought it would. At the start of the year I never thought I would end up in the dark places I have been. It has been a massive roller coaster of a year. I didn’t ever think I would end the year.

6 months ago I almost took my life when a friend stepped in and made me to get help. I found the strength to do that. I now have an amazing team helping me through this journey of recovery. I also found so much support on these forums.

Along the way I have discovered so much about myself. After being in that dark suicidal place many times since I realise have a lot more strength and resilience than I ever realised. I have found some confidence that I’ve never had. I have also grown so much as a person and have learnt to be more open and trusting to those trying to help me through.

While 2022 has been a disaster, I’m not sure if I would change it if I could. I am finishing the year a much different person to what I started out as. Yes, now I have a MI label but it doesn’t define me. It makes me a stronger, more compassionate and understanding person.

2023 will, no doubt, bring many more challenges but I think I will make it.

2023 is my year.

I wish to send you all positive vibes for the new year and with the strength of each other, we can do it!

@Snowie @Bow @tyme @creative_writer @Birdofparadise8 @hanami @Eve7 @Former-Member @Jynx @Shaz51 @FloatingFeather

and anyone else I’ve forgotten