I can’t cope

I have been taking it easy @Jynx. I’ve done hours upon hours of diamond art.

I do hope you get out there soon.

Im really sorry guys but I just don’t have words. I’m stuck and broken. I’m not even talking to my dogs. I’m really really down.

@MissGremlin

@Captain24 oh sweet, I'm sorry things are feeling like this for you at the moment. I'm sitting with you sweetheart and sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️

Good on you for recognising and not pushing yourself to find words when you have none @Captain24 - do what you need to do hun, get some rest if you can. Sending some hugs your way!

(づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡

Thanks for understanding @Jynx @MissGremlin

I woke up at 5:30 this morning,

I was tossing and turning in bed for a little while so I got up and went out and had a smoke. My mum then rings. It’s 6:15 at this stage, she told me the supermarket was opened an hour earlier. So now I’m home and unpacked my groceries without it being mayhem in there! Plus I got my prawns for tomorrow with ease! Normally the supermarket is just opening.

That feels a little good. Stupid how the small things matter

Morning @Captain24 sweet, I'm glad you got to the supermarket early and yay for getting prawns. It's not stupid, those little things really do mean alot ☺️.

How are you feeling sweetheart?

I rang mum and couldn’t thank her enough @MissGremlin Not having to face a supermarket full of people was just what I needed.

Im just waiting for my dietitian appointment. It starts in 10 minutes. Then I have to go back into town and get my scripts.

I’ve been doing diamond art and I’m halfway through. I’ve just started in the next section.

Im feeling pretty alright ish. The diamond art is helping I think but I'm really going down hill by the late afternoon and night. I did get more sleep last night though. It also feels like the mania is subsiding.

How are you feeling?

@Captain24 not having to face a supermarket full of people is the best thing. I'm so glad that you got to get your shopping out the way without stress.

Hope the direction appointment goes ok and going back into town to get your scripts goes smoothly.

You're doing amazing with the diamond art and I'm glad that it feels like it's helping you. I start crashing by the afternoon/evening aswell. Getting more sleep last night is great, hoping that mania feeling keeps subsiding for you sweet.

I'm feeling really tired even though I got 7 hours of sleep last night. Everything feels out of sorts today, I'm worried about the long weekend and how I'm going to cope (I'm safe). I might grab my diamond art and do some while I watch TV.

It was great! @MissGremlin. I just went and got my scripts and it’s mayhem in town. So much traffic!

My appointment went well. She talks about my mental health stuff first. She has given me tips on trying to remember to have breakfast. I told her that I just forget to eat and I have no hunger cues.

I’m hoping to not need a sleep this afternoon. I’m now wondering whether it’s the depression causing it or whether it is fatigue.

Diamond art has been a god send. I don’t think I’ll have it finished for Sunday though so I’ll have to take it off the table as we are having a baked lunch at my house.

Sometimes a good nights sleep just isn’t enough especially when you have been struggling to sleep. I’m sorry you feel out if sorts. What is worrying you over the weekend?

@Captain24 I'm really dreading having to go to the shops this afternoon.

I'm glad your appointment went well. I struggle with hunger cues, I only realise I need to eat when I start feeling nauseous and get dizzy.

Hoping you don't need a sleep this afternoon so that you can maybe get a good sleep tonight. It's hard to know but it could also be a combination of things causing it.

Having a baked lunch on Sunday sounds so good. At least diamond art is relatively easy to move around if need be.

I have to be careful about what I say about it on here (I'm safe). But my mental health worker, gp and counsellor are all on the same page with where things are currently sitting so that if need be things can be put in place to help keep me safe. I'll be keeping connected here over the weekend and doing my craft activities to stay distracted too.

I bet you are @MissGremlin. I usually go early that way it’s quieter plus I wouldn’t leave the house now to go.

It’s my mood that’s causing it. But it is what it is.

Im exhausted now. Really exhausted. I want to keep doing my diamond art but don’t think I can. My sleep could be anything. There is so much going on to consider.

Yeah. I’ll just chuck it in the spare bed and get it out again when they leave. So it’s easy.

I think I have read between the lines, I’m glad that they are all keeping an eye on you. I’ll be around mostly tomorrow and Saturday and then most of Sunday expect for when I’m cooking and they are here. I’m at work on Monday though so I won’t be here at all.

I can help you when I can.