I can’t cope

Awwww @Captain24 !

There's so much going on for you hun! Pix, sugery, a GP that tells you to go and volunteer??? um.... I chuckled a little, but I also was thinking (Nah, this person doesn't know @Captain24 ).

Sounds strange, but a text-based 'relationship' on the forums knows more about you than a GP you see in real life.

Please take care. I'm thinking about you and hope the surgery goes well...

Deal with the aftereffects after. For now, just hold on.

Thinking about you. Holding your hand through this.

Hey @tyme

Good to see you.

There is a lot going on. It all feels a bit much. To make things worse, my surgery isn’t until 2 tomorrow afternoon. Which means we don’t know if dad and I will come home or stay the night. I want to be home in my own bed but it also needs to be safe. Dad hasn’t done a lot of night driving at all let alone on these roads.

My psych was amazing yesterday though. She understands me and knows me so well. She completely gets me. She has helped me batten down the hatches for the oncoming storm. (I said feel like im in a cyclone and currently in the eye of the storm, I need the rest of the cyclone to come through to be able to get to the sunny days) But you are right about my GP! He doesn’t get that I’m a loner. He said no one is everyone needs social interaction. I love that you laughed, I was like, is he serious! I don’t know what he thinks going to church will do?

Oh wow surgery is tomorrow @Captain24 I hope it all goes soooo smoothly!!

I always mean it deary, trust 😊

It sounds like your GP is possibly overestimating your current capacity? You can take it on board but still approach things at your own pace. Or you can highlight that the pushing feels too much and you'd like him to work with you to set more attainable goals.

I'm glad that your other supports are able to work with you where you're at, and helping you feel like it's like, a team effort! It's always easier to approach things when you feel like you're not alone 💜

Hope you are able to get some sleep tonight, but don't be too hard on yourself if it's difficult to sleep. Big day tomorrow, and any rest is good rest 😉

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Yes it’s today @Jynx Im pretty anxious about it.

Yeah, he doesn’t get it at all. I have no capacity. I can try and shower everyday and clean my teeth but that’s about it. He doesn’t get that I’m generally a loner and prefer to be in my own. Yes I would like a couple more friends but it’s not important.

I did tell him that it was too much but he said the only way out is to push myself. I get that as it progresses but not yet and not for a while and he can forget volunteering!

The others have been great and understanding. My psych and Pdoc are on the exact same page and have never communicated with each other! They are way more appropriate. They haven’t asked much of me at all.

I did struggle to fall asleep but I’m awake now and it’s just after 2. I’m hoping I’ll rollover and go back to sleep but it doesn’t feel like it. I think it’s the stress but I need to sleep. The time is also stressing me out. It’s so late in the day and I don’t know if I can come home.

Hope things are going ok for you?

I’m awake again. I did have a muesli bar though as I’m suppose to have toast at 7. Plus water and my meds so I guess it was a good thing that I woke up early.

Im back in bed now but wide awake. I’m a little stressed about this afternoon. I’m really hoping that they call me to come in earlier. That would be so much better. The stress of getting home isn't helping.

I guess it’s a good thing that anxiety has taken over , at least I feel something.

Morning @Captain24 sweet, I'm glad you had a muesli bar and I hope you can get a bit more rest before you have to go in today.

I'm hoping all goes ok for you today sweet, I'll be thinking of you. Would definitely be good to be called in earlier.

Sending you lots of love and hugs sweetheart ❤️

It’s been a really hard drive. Dad and I have nothing to talk about! It was pretty awkward. But I’m here and I’m waiting outside to be taken in. Hopefully I don’t have to wait too long. I’m starving and thirsty!

I’m sitting here waiting to see the surgeon and then I’m allowed out. I’m really tired. I didn’t wake up well from the anaesthetic . Plus I’ve had quite a bit of pain relief. The pain is ridiculous. I wish he would hurry up as I may be able to actually get home.

How are you feeling @Captain24 ? I've been thinking about you.

Lol... "go to church" is as good as "go have a bath"... i used to hate when people told me to 'have a bath'... good luck to those who don't have a bath tub in the modern houses... they can bathe in the kitchen or laundry sink!

On a serious note, are you resting?