My back was sore but still not as bad as I expected. Pix is bouncing off the walls. She is the best she has been in a long time. But after her insulin she gets tired. Mum noticed that today. Then when her sugars are supposed to be high and she should be tired she is full of energy. I’m hoping that is a positive sign!!!
It was just a hard day. Someone made a sarcastic comment about something. I did do the wrong thing but everyone else was too. It played over in my head all day and I was like, nobody even likes me here’ then a boss pulled me up on the same thing. My fault I didn’t say my unit number I just said watercart. But he didn’t pull anyone else up for just using names and not unit numbers. It felt targeted. It wasn’t it was just that it was me at that time but I didn’t stop me thinking all the negative things. I’m really struggling with it. That something so little can pull me so far down at work. I couldn’t even talk to anyone when I had my break. Not that I could get a word in when they asked me a question anyway. No one cares what I think and not many have been around as long as I have. But I’m considered as not knowing anything. Everything just ate me up and spat me out. It took everything I have (and there’s not much) to not cry the afternoon away. I really don’t want to go tomorrow. I’m dreading it so much. I’m thinking of all the things that could happen so I don’t have to go. Yes.. read between the lines. I’m safe though as I don’t have the energy to act on anything. It’s really weird and had to sit with that. The wanting so badly but not having the energy to consider it.
It must be so hard for him and to see that he has lost his spark. Has he seen a doctor? Or you don’t know as you have been so busy. Oh.. yeah.. how did your post it notes go?
