I can’t cope

Ah, Pix doesnt like routine darn it! Hopefully she will adjust though if she doesnt have any choicr 😅 just take a bit longer.

I can understand her felking out of sorts and more anxious and refusing medication over the weekend - kinda like when she hid behind the couch. But once the stress lowers and things settle into a new routine i am hopefuly she will be back to her normal personality.

So lovely that the vet really likes her 🥰 and has her on her lap awww 😍. I have a vet practice i take my dogs to for non-emergency but not-just-a-vaccination things. Its a 45min drive each way though, which is why i cant usually use it for emergencies even though work adjacent to their house and boarding kennels. Reminds me, i've been meaning to call the nearby vet for my dog vaccinations!

Ive just put away a few things at home; go me. No other plans for today thankfully a home-day. Another busy week with at least 1 appointment each day.

I’m hoping once I get her home she will be almost herself. She has had much more treatment for the pancreatitis yesterday and over night so hopefully that is clearing up. I have blocked off so she can’t hide behind the lounge! I just need to remember to shut my bedroom door and the back door at meal times! @AlwaysMyself

That's good that you have a good vet. There is only 2 in town so not much choice but we have been going to this one since we first got a dog and that would have been at least 45 years ago!

Well done on getting stuff packed away! That is a huge achievement. Appointments everyday is hard though. I was suppose to have 2 tomorrow my psych and my dietitian but obviously I cancelled both. But at least all my appointments, other than my GP, are Telehealth so I don’t need to leave the house. Loving Telehealth! I just put a top in, it doesn’t matter if I haven’t showered, it doesn’t matter if I’m still in pj’s (on the bottom). My psych doesn’t care about pj’s anyway. She has seen me in them before at hospital. All she cares about is that I’m there. My first appointment with her was at the hospital and we went through so much about what she needed from me with Telehealth as in person she can read me better but we have both gotten use to it and I can tell her anything over Telehealth but struggle a little while I’m in person. She also reads me extremely well via Telehealth as well.

So far I have cleaned the mess that was my kitchen, cleaned the ensuite, bathed Jett and done 2 loads of washing. I’m just about to vacuum, sweep and wash the floors. Then I’ll feel a little more comfortable in my house. I have a massive list of things I need to do but I’m pushing really hard to get this done so I need to be gentle and let them wait. But if I take the next 5 days off work I’ll have a little more time. I still need to ride out this really low unfunctionable mood. It’s been a couple of weeks now that it’s been this bad, I’m hoping it rides through its course soon but I am also reminding myself that it could take months and to not put pressure on myself.

Wow you have done a LOT today @Captain24 !

I encourage you also to think whether to also do a bit of something that is relaxing or enjoyable or unwinding for you also 😊 - a bit of balance, maybe even as a reward for all the work you have done already too!

I am all for comfy clothes. Whenever i hear someone (that I'm woth - not a stranger lol) comment negatively about seeing adults in PJ clothes at the shops I always turn the question back on them about "whats wrong with that? They're clothes. They do the same job. They're comfy." I really don't understand why it bothers others when no one is forcing/expecting them to do it themselves. I'm pragmatic lol.

Hmm showers... yeah... i have a shower before my massage appointments. But otherwise... unless i smell, i don't care. No one else is touching my skin so what does it matter? 😅

I mean, if i were going in for a procedure/surgery i would shower! But not for my psych or gp or whatever lol. Im glad i dont have any conditions that *require* me to have a daily shower for health or if i had a super-sweaty job!

I have cleaned the floors and just have to get the washing off the line and iron it @AlwaysMyself. It hasn’t been easy. But it has managed to keep me distracted for the first time in a while. I was thinking of going through the woollies bricks and start setting that up. But it feels like a lot. I’ve got several things like that that I can do but it just doesn’t appeal to me right now. But then again nothing does.

I couldn’t go anywhere in my pj’s. I go in Ugg boots, pretty much everywhere in winter. I’ve actually got them on now!

Showering is a tough one for me. I shower of a night before I go to work the next day and I try and shower before I go to appointments but if I’m just at home I don’t. But I do get a little smelly with the whole perimenopause thing. It can affect body odour.

Speaking of which. I don’t think I have showered since I got home. I probably should go do that before I’m in a little room with the vet.

How did your appointment go? If today was one of the days?

I got my first Wollies bricks the other day @Captain24 ! Just a single packet. I dont buy much at the supermarket now days. It got a recycling bin cricket stumps 🤭 it made me laugh when i thought about it and realised that is a pretty aussie thing to do ... backyard or street cricket. Not that i think i ever have done it myself.

I wouldnt wear pjs out myself either - but i have no problem with others doing it 😊.

Today is my appointment-free day. Until i booked the dogs for their vaccinations since they could do it this arvo, and i figured i could take the dogs from there to a cafe where some friend meet every day. So will do both in one trip so i feels less oneous to go out just for the vaccinations. I'll be heading off soonish for that (half an hour?).

Tomorrow is a 1hr appt with 30-40min drive each way, and as soon as i get home from that i will have a 2hr telephone appointment for the clinical trial intake. Then after that i usually have an online group i join - but that is optional.

I’ve just finished everything on my list @AlwaysMyself. Now to just wait for the call to pick Pix up.

The stumps sound cool! I do all my shopping there and so does mum and dad. They know is as well as we usually get a lot more bricks than earnt! I’m thinking about starting to do it. It’s really messy all just sitting there.

We use to have plastic stumps for in the street and wooden stumps for in the backyard. Every summer us and the other kids in the street would be playing cricket.

I hope you enjoy the time with the dogs and coffee and hope they are better at getting their vaccinations than Jett!

Tomorrow sounds so busy. I don’t know how you can keep up with it all.

I’ve just rang the vet as I hadn’t heard from them. Pix is still there and staying in tonight as well. I still don’t have my baby. I’m a little bit sad. Well actually a lot. I’m really missing her and want her with me. I just want to hold her, cuddle her and give her some love.

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@Captain24 oh sweet, I'm sorry that she still isn't home with you. Sitting with you sweetheart and sending you hugs ❤️

Sorry to hear that Pix is not home with you tonight @Captain24. Keeping fingers crossed you are together tomorrow. 🫂

I’m getting really stressed. I’m worried about how she is coping. Does she think I’ve forgotten her? It’s really upsetting.

Plus I’m stressing as I haven’t heard from my psych.

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