I can’t cope

@Captain24 it's definitely a good thing that she's looking a little brighter but it makes things hard if her levels aren't right. I'm so glad your vet is really good with all of this, it sounds like they are doing everything they can to help her and find out what's going on.

Awww poor Jett, he would be so confused at the moment. Lots of cuddles for him and I'm hoping you can get some rest sweet while you know that Pix is in good hands.

The meeting is with housing SA cos of the ridiculous rent increase that's going to cause me to be homeless in less than a month. But I already know they can't do anything and it's just going through the motions.

I just picked Jett up and he wouldn’t get down, he hung onto me. I’ve put him on my bed and I’ve just gotten into it. @MissGremlin I can’t go to sleep yet though as the vet hasn’t rang with the blood test results yet. Mum and dad drive past and there is cars in the car park so she got busy. Hoping I here soon so I can get a little bit of sleep.

Im so sorry that that’s happening to you. That must be really stressful and here you are listening to my shit. I’m so sorry, I didn’t know. That makes things so much harder for you. Do you have any other options?

Thinking of you both @MissGremlin @Captain24 and hoping you can both get some extra rest today despite the anxieties and worries about your respective meetings/appointments tomorrow. (And of course the additional major stress of Pix's health @Captain24 )

It would be confusing for Jett too, not knowing where Pixie has gone or why. I'm glad you are there with her though. You mentioned Jett also goes to the vet hospital tomorrow? Or did you mean to your mum whilst you have your appointment? (Sorry, just wanting to clarify as i'm confused lol - which is not a problem for me to be confused though lol)

I hope you can get some rest knowing the Pixie is in as much and safe care as possible, and there is literally nothing more you can do for her currently other than make sure you are as well as possible to then be able to care for her at home again once she is healthy enough for that too. I know it doesnt take away the anxiety and thoughts and fear, but also that focusing on these worries won't help Pix get better either - since you have already acted on getting vet help 🥰.

Is there anything you can take to help calm the thoughts and feelings if they are overwhelming and preventing you from getting some rest whilst she is at the vet hospital?

Just read re: waiting for vet call before you can sleep @Captain24 . Hope they call soon. 😊

Thankyou @AlwaysMyself sweet ❤️.

I just have to keep pushing through to make sure both of them are coping @AlwaysMyself. Jett is on the bed with me now. Pix has to go back for and all day test again tomorrow. So once again I’ll take Pix out and leave Jett alone and then come back with out Pix. I feel like he is getting a little neglected in all of this. He loves car rides and I just keep coming and going with Pix or without.

I can’t do anything else for her. I have done the best I can and while the vet doesn’t know what is going on with Pix she is doing a lot of tests to see if she can put things together.

I just wish she would call so I can get some sleep before I have to pick her up again and so I know what they have and haven’t found.

How is your day shaping up?

@Captain24 awww Jett just needs lots of reassurance and he'll be ok. Really hoping the vet rings soon so you can get some rest sweet.

It's completely ok sweet. When things are tough like this for me I try to support other people cos it helps to focus on other things rather than what's going on for me. It's incredibly stressful and scary and there's no other options that I haven't already tried.

"I can’t do anything else for her. I have done the best I can."

From what you've shared, it's so clear to me how truly loved your fur babies are. They're so incredibly lucky to have you @Captain24 , and I want you to know that you couldn't possibly do more for them than you already are. Sending you strength💓

~ @Honeymoon

@Captain24 I'm also like @MissGremlin where if im anxious or stressed by something and there is nothing more i can do about it, my way of distracting myself is to focus on helping someone else 😅 - take my mind off myself lol.

My day so far is ok. Had to wake up early to drop my car off for all-day cleaning. Getting ready to hopefully sell the little car (now my partner has left, i dont need two cars -- too expensive to rego/insure/service). So that means it needs a proper deep clean for both normal dust and dirt and all the dog hair. Its like a carpet on the carpet lol. I had a seat hammock in it, so the seats arent bad - but the floor where all the fur in the air goes is soo bad lol. But i have removable floor mats which should help.

Now my dogs wont be allowed back in that car - so it stays clean.

I guess now i can think about "next steps" for listing the car for sale. And how much i need to discount it due to some paint scratches and the key buttons needing replacement (key works, but rubber buttons are missing due to being worn off - tried to find a replacement shell, but couldnt find one for sale in Aus and it would cost hundreds of dollars per key to replace/repair).

I'm just reading back... how stressful @Captain24 !

Sitting with you. So you are home at the moment? Or at the vet?