I can’t cope

@Captain24 I'm sorry you've not been able to sleep sweet. That's not good that's she's not drinking or eating, poor Pix really isn't well.

It sounds like hospital might be the best place for her whilst she is going through the worst of this.

I did wake up having a full on panic attack after a nightmare which I'm struggling to stop seeing cos it just keeps playing out in my head over and over again (I'm safe). I've got Casper laying across me to help keep me grounded and I'm trying to slow things down.

Anything I can do to help? @MissGremlin

@Captain24 just knowing that I'm not alone helps sweet and so does focusing on something or someone else.

You’re not alone @MissGremlin . I’m here.

Do you have any plans for today.

@Captain24 thankyou sweet ❤️.

I'm actually going to try to have a rest day today. I have an appointment on Monday that's really going to take alot out of me so I'm going to need my strength for that.

Is there anything you need to do other than caring for Pix of course.

A rest day sounds good @MissGremlin

I have a lot to do but just can’t do it. I don’t have the energy or care factor to do it.

If Pix ends up in hospital then hopefully I can get some sleep. Other than that it’ll just be all about Pix and what she needs.

What does a rest day look like?

@Captain24 i hear you sweet and right now things can wait.

As much as I don't want to see Pix have to be in hospital it may be the best place for her, especially with getting fluids into her. It would also be good for you to be able to get some sleep so you don't burn out completely.

A rest day for me means doing the absolute bare minimum. Hopefully I can lay in bed and rest, maybe do some Lego. I'll still do the basics such as dishes and caring for the animals but other than that I just want a day to relax as much as I can.

I don’t want her in there either but if that’s what the vet thinks when I ring her in the morning the. That’s where she will go. @MissGremlin

She seems to be asleep now. I can hear her snoring. It’s when she stops snoring that I get scared. I tried to catch her pee earlier and missed it. I wanted to recheck it. I’m hoping I don’t miss it in the morning. I really need to know the results.

Dojng nothing sounds good. Staying in bed would be nice. I like that even though things are tough you still get stuff done. I was like that up until about couple of weeks ago. I know how much effort that takes and you do well to do it.

Will you get more sleep tonight? Have you calmed down?

@Captain24 i remember trying to catch my last pups pee that I lost when she was 3 years old. She had renal dysplasia so I had to get regular tests done on her kidney levels and to check for UTI's. It's definitely not an easy task, best thing I found to use was an old small frypan to quickly stick under her to catch it.

It's been harder to do things and i really have only been doing what i absolutely have to and even then I struggle. You are still doing well sweet to get some things done, even if it's just getting yourself a drink and having something to eat, it all still counts.

I'm a bit calmer now so I'm going to try to get some more sleep. You're still welcome to tag me and I'll reply as soon as I see it. Take care of yourself sweet and i hope you can get a tiny bit of sleep.

I’m using a serving spoon. It fits between her legs and she didn’t even notice it. @MissGremlin. The first time was so easy but the second was hard. I guess I’ll get there but with her not drinking much there’s not going to be many chances.

I hope you can get some sleep and stay asleep this time.