I can’t cope

@Captain24 it's ok sweet. Whilst I've been here today I've been pretty absent and not really able to communicate much.

I'm almost done for the day and I'll be starting my bedtime routine shortly. Really looking forward to just sitting in bed.

Nah. It’s not his sone @tyme. She walked out on her son and partner when he was just a baby. She has only recently started to have anything to do with him.

It’s better for me and my dogs but it’s sad for mum. Her son isn’t making effort. He even had a day off and didn’t tell her.

But we hadn’t planned dinner for tonight for us as they were suppose to be here so mum suggested Italian for us, I was a little excited!

That sounds pretty hard going for a teen. The whole replacing her because she is dying.

It’s summer and we have been having really hot days at home! Really hot! On nightshift I’ve been wearing a singlet under my heavy hi-vis clothes!

I do find it interesting how some people like things and others don’t. Some like the cold, some like the heat, different foods people like and dislike.

Oh! You like Italian!

Did I tell you that when you ask the kids what the favourite part of their trip was, they say "The Food!"... then when you ask, "What food?" The kids all say "pizza"... But honestly, the pizza in india wasn't too made @Captain24 It wasn't THAT GOOD either.

I LOVE pasta - what do you like?

It sorta makes me angry that your bro doesn't make an effort... anyway, I'll stay out of it.

As long as you are okay with everything and it's not too bad for you tonight.

Let me know what you eat!

Have you heard of the Blue light card for frontline workers? My sister got one, so we had El Jannah the other night. It was so yummy but I think I had too much garlic sauce @Captain24

As for your brother's ex.... she must've had a lot going on to walk out on him as a baby....

I hope by now you are in bed @MissGremlin. Being able to just look after yourself. Just take things as they come.

@Captain24 not yet I'm not but working on getting there. Just reminding myself to breathe and take things one step at a time.

That’s funny. All the food they would have had and pizza was it @tyme

I had chilli prawns. I like pasta but I am a bit fussy.

She has BPD but as awful as I am, I’m struggling with it being an excuse for everything. I’m not discrediting MI at allZ I’m the last person that can do that. But it’s an excuse for when anything happens. I don’t mean it’s easy to live with and that things aren’t hard but you have to accept some things are just life!!!!

Just about to take the dogs for a quick walk along the beach

I wonder if she had post natal depression? @Captain24

As for BPD, it's not incurable. People DO get better, but it's faster if they get treatment.

Enjoy your walk. I'll be off by the time you return. I'll see you Wed.

We went for the walk along the beach and Jett and Keiko both have 15 metre long leads for the beach. They both took off and we dropped the leads. They ran a muck. Because they were running and down near the water, Pix, who isn’t suppose to exercise, can running down the sand full-pelt. She hasn’t run that fast in a long time. While we weren’t there very long all 3 dogs had an awesome time @MissGremlin

How is your routine going?

@Captain24 awwww it sounds like they all had such a good time even if you weren't there for long.

I'm in bed now, I'm so exhausted but have a lot of thoughts right now (I'm safe). Hoping I can fall asleep soon.

She may have had post-natal depression, I’m not sure @tyme. She does say that she doesn’t want to be a mum.

Please don’t think I was meaning it in a derogatory way. I accept that she has it, I accept that it’s hard, it just frustrates me that she uses it for excuses. I know I am a lot different but while I’m struggling badly with bipolar depression right now. I’m still here and trying to work through things for a week. She can’t manage a night? Why couldn't he come on his own? She is controlling him. He hasn’t been out with his friends, he doesn’t do anything other than work.