I can’t cope

@Captain24 i lose focus on things easily so it's good for me to have a few different activities to do. What sort of things do you like sweetheart?

I don’t know @AuntGlow. I can’t think straight. I have had an icy pole and I’ve had some cold water, both off my SP. it sprinkled with rain earlier and I stood in it but it wasn’t really much. I’ve got Jett on my lap and pix is in my room on my bed.

Obviously I have Lego, I have diamond art, mosaic, resin and 3D puzzles. @MissGremlin

@Captain24 Lego is always great but expensive 😂. Lots of good things to do there though ☺️.

Yep. She went straight to sleep.. but she was literally bawling her eyes out @Captain24 . Completely sobbing. As wild as she is, she's super sensitive. (Actually, I think she was super tired)...

And I felt bad so tonight, I snuck one small block of cadbury into her mouth. Literally ONE square, and she was delighted...

If only we could be as innocent and happy as these kids...

If you give me one square of chocolate and I bounding off to bed??? Fat chance!

Argh... i think I was in a 'giving' mood today. I also snuck two lamb chops and gave them to Ruby....

@Captain24 , I know it's hard for you right now. I don't want to leave you, but I gotta go soon. Keep focusing on those Mars Bars, your pop and your nan... they are with you, protecting you.

That’s so sweet, a small piece of chocolate making such a difference and I’m sure Ruby loved it! @tyme

Thanks for being here with me. I know you have to go and can’t stay, that’s ok, you were holding me while you could. Thank you so much.

Firstly, I am proud of you for connecting with your safety plan, this shows me you have access to your executive functioning and the part of you that can start to ground. @Captain24 💛

I am aware we finish up now, but I want to leave you with something to try: are you able to lean into dropping anchor or finding a part of you that can become mindful about how Jett feels on your lap?

It is expensive and so is resin! That stuff costs a bomb! @MissGremlin. Mum got me some for Christmas so that was good. Plus extra resins stuff that I ordered, like dyes and stuff. Plus a 3D puzzle, they aren’t cheap either.

I did get some mini bricked of Temu that were cheap but really hard!

My safety plan is becoming second nature to me @AuntGlow. That’s why my psych makes me look at it all the time.

I did dropping anchor with my psych and all that comes up is distress. I can’t see what it’s hiding. What’s underneath.

Im laying in bed with my weighted plushie on my chest, Jett at me feet and Pix on the floor laying on my dirty clothes instead of the nice soft pillows!

Thank you for being here with me tonight. I have really appreciated the support and care.

@Captain24 yes resin stuff is expensive but you can make so many pretty things with it. I'm glad you got some for Christmas from your mum, have you made some yet? I've only ever done one 3D puzzle many years ago.

Oh those mini bricks can be so fiddly and sometimes the instructions are confusing. I like the nanoblocks but they are also expensive to buy.