I can’t cope

Tis is what it looks like to live in a small country town @MissGremlin. I have just got off the phone with them ringing me back to say that they will squeeze it on but it won’t be until late this afternoon. She even told me to say high to mum and dad. It’s a bit of a relief. I can shower tonight and cook dinner and food for work. I may have shed a couple of happy tears.

@Captain24 i understand it well sweet, when I used to live on the farm we had issues getting gas if we ran out unexpectedly. I'm so glad they are able to squeeze you in though sweet, that's fantastic.

My estate is a 3 km out of town and there is no one else out here on the run today so they are making the trip just for me. Their run is on the other side of town. @MissGremlin

I’ve packed a little bit and I’ve ironed one set of work clothes. I still have a lot to do an I’m hoping the adhd kicks in soon.

Im now sitting on the lounge again. I need to go grocery shopping, go to the chemist and get fuel.

This is really really hard. Up until last week I was really good at doing stuff. Everything has to be done today. I have taken stuff off my list so it’s not so overwhelming and give myself a chance. I’m not doing the lawns or bathing the dogs. I’m trying to be proud of myself for making my list smaller to look after myself but I feel guilty that I’m just not physically and mentally capable.

@Captain24 I'm just heading out sweet but I will be back soon. I'm sitting with you though ❤️

I’m about to as well. As soon as I get dressed. @MissGremlin. I’ve got something pretty important to do that I promised my psych I would do. Get rid of some stuff.

Hope all goes well.

@Captain24 I'm really proud of you for taking that step to get rid of things sweetheart.

I just got back home and I'm going to put potatoes on to make potato salad and do the dishes.

Hey @Captain24,

I can hear how hard today has been for you after knowing the gas bottle wouldn't be delivered until later. Sometimes those moments can really bring us down, isn't it? I'm glad that you have reached out to SANE today to get the support you deserve when things seem so difficult to manage.

I hope you can be gentle to yourself today. If the thoughts get stronger, reaching out to one-on-one support like Lifeline or Beyond Blue would be a good idea to unpack those overwhelmed feelings.

It’s really hard @CalmOwl.

Im in a really really dark place right now. I even had two appointments with my psychologist in two days. I need help. I shouldn’t actually be at home, I should be in hospital. But it’s just not possible right now. I am safe just really unwell. Im really distressed.

Im trying to be gentle. There is things that I have to do. But I have lessened my work load to look at for myself today. I have to go to work tomorrow so I need to be careful.

one less stress is the gas bottles though. It’s a good thing living in a small country town. The lady at the gas place knows my family and has known me since I was born.

Thanks for checking in.