I can’t cope

Coping mechanism from decades ago, nervous system still reacts the same @Jynx

Get angry and there is good chance flood gates open when I start to calm down.

one of my problems is when someone gets angry and is in position of authority (eg solicitor last yr), I go into freeze mode immediately. Can’t answer, can’t move, cant think and, most definitely, can’t respond. Another coping mechanism which started decades ago

provided bit more info eg relationship to person named, on spreadsheet I’ve typed up which contains date, my age and brief summary of trauma event. So exhausting. Tomorrow need to upload the 2 pages onto program that new psychiatrist uses.

That's okay @Captain24,

I can hear that things have felt really big for you over the past couple of days and I just want you to know that we are walking alongside you here. 💛

I am very glad to hear your psychologist is taking action and is there to advocate for you.

What are your next steps? Please keep me updated and let me know what you need from us, okay?

Sending lots of nurturing and soothing your way. 🥰

I’ve been trying really hard to distract myself today. I thought about the GD thing. @Flutterbug9 @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself

I’m definitely female but just a butch one. I’m comfortable in me s clothes but also female clothes just not overly girly ones.

As for the angry cry… I’m terrible for it. I had a massive fight with my boss one day and burst into tears. It was so embarrassing and shameful. He then didn’t take me seriously and just thought I was being ‘female’ Definitely an angry crier

Hey @Captain24

Hey @tyme

How was your day?

Hello @Captain24, the fact that you've been trying to distract yourself today is an amazing effort.

How was your day sweetheart?

How rude and insensitive of him.

Typical reaction though of men in certain industries and backgrounds. (Generalising comment, no insult intended for any males on the forum).

in present day, no excuse for that type of behaviour.

how are things going outside of work @Captain24 ?

Pix and Jett been behaving?

hy @tyme @MissGremlin

Training'd out @Captain24 . Hours of training. I'm just hovering here because I'm supposed to be on other services, but it seems quiet there for now.

Did you go to work today?

Tomorrow, we are now up to 20 people coming over.

Hello @Flutterbug9 sweet, was trying to reply to your post but my internet is being a, well you know what 😂.

Waiting for it to connect again hopefully, don't like using my phone data too much.

What’s happening tomorrow @tyme

training others can be tiring work. Sending hugs and wishes for a long, restful sleep tonight