I can’t cope

They are so little but take up so much room! 😂 You’re going to have the same problem but a lot worse as they will be quite large! @MissGremlin

It’s ok, I’ve functioned on less sleep. Usually when manic though. But I’ll get through.

Im so sorry that you can’t even get a nap in. I wish I had something to help you. I’m all out of ideas.

She definitely isn’t cooperating, I think she remembers, it’s hard when she is so switched on! I might go into town and do what I need to do then maybe I can catch her when I get home!

How are you feeling today? Is there anything I can do for you?

@Captain24 haha yes my two are not exactly on the small side 😂.

I honestly surprise myself sometimes when I function on such little sleep. But hopefully tonight we can both get a good night's rest.

Maybe if I don't nap today then I'll sleep tonight, wishful thinking 😂. It's all good, just have to keep pushing through.

Oh cheeky Pix, she's definitely a smart cookie. Hope the trip into town goes ok and you can get the dog bones and what you need at bunnings.

Things are feeling heavy and I feel fragile and emotional. But it helps to know that you and the community are here. I think just staying connected today will help me get through ☺️

It’s amazing what we can do when we have to. @MissGremlin. I hope you function ok.

I got the bones and everything from Bunnings and fuel to get to work. All I have to do is go into town tomorrow to get food for work as I go back Monday. Jett can smell them on my hands. The dog treat guy even chucked in extra bones for me. I think I got 8 bones for $15, I’m not exactly sure what he threw in.

I had to talk to people in Bunnings, my best friends mum, her aunty and a girl I work with. So much for not seeing anyone!

Maybe if you try and stay awake that may help. I think that is partly why I struggled last night because I had a 2 hour sleep in the afternoon.

Now to try and catch Pix for a bath! If not I’ll do it tomorrow.

I’m so sorry things are still so hard. You deserve a break, even for a little while. I don’t know how you manage to keep up in here. I get too overwhelmed! It’s a lot. But I’m really happy that it helps you and the connection keeps you safe.

Anything that I can do just let me know.

@Captain24 yes sometimes it is, I think i just run on autopilot 😂.

Yay glad you managed to get everything you needed today, hope the trip into town tomorrow for food goes ok. Bonus that he chucked in some extra bones for you, sounds like a bargain ☺️.

Hope chatting to the people you saw in bunnings wasn't too bad, I know it's hard running into people when you just wanted to get in and out quickly.

I dozed off for a little bit but I am awake now, going to make myself an iced coffee and then slowly start to get ready for the shops.

Haha how's it going with Pix and the bath?

I struggled to keep up yesterday especially last night, it got really busy suddenly but I guess it helps as a distraction aswell. It's hard at the moment cos I'm not getting email notifications so I don't know when someone's replied until later.

Thankyou sweet, i really appreciate you being here and our chats ❤️

No bath yet! But I am using the time to sort out one of my Lego cabinets! @MissGremlin. I need more shelves though I think.

He looks after his regular customers, he even remembers that I have 2 dogs.

I hope the doze helped.

I feel like an iced drink. Maybe I’ll make some ice cubes and have iced water. That is also on my safety plan. I just realised I don’t have the air con in the room I’m working in! Might need to put it in and in the other room! Stupid me.

It was awkward. My best friends aunty hasn’t spoken to me in years and wants to catch up for lunch. I’m think that that is a big NO.

I hope getting to the shops is ok. Sometimes it’s really hard to get yourself ready and to go out. I probably wouldn’t have if I didn’t need the bones. I’ll give them one each tonight.

I turned off email notifications as it was just spamming me! I only jump on and check now. I guess it is a distraction but my social anxiety kicks in too and I feel like I’m intruding and useless and say the wrong thing. It’s really hard for me. I really don’t know how you do it and keep up with everything. I just can’t.

I hope getting to the shops goes ok for you and helps with distraction and just getting out of the house.

@Captain24 Hello lovely how are you feeling today?

I like the squirty toys. I’m glad you’ve got some sensory ones coming too. Let me know how they go. Sounds like you have a really good psychologist. That is so helpful and really helps with mental health.

Are you still struggling today lovely? I hope that it’s passed and you feel better today rather than worse.

Yes this taper is brutal and I’m really struggling through it. It’s a hard day today. Im trying my best but this is terribly hard. I’m safe.

I can’t sing the praises of her high enough @Cuddlebear. She is absolutely amazing and everyone deserves someone like her. She really works with me for where I’m at, understand when there is things I just can’t do, picked up on my mania that presented really differently. Picked up on my adhd and got me to go and get diagnosed. She remembers things, I said I was questioning OCD and she said she has been marking down the flags I’ve shown. She is also concerned with psychosis and remembers the tings that I have said and is keeping them in hand to go back to if things happen again.

I am still struggling but at the moment I have been keeping myself busy sorting out my Lego. It’s giving me something else to think about.

I can only imagine how hard it is. Do you have any support through it? Are you able to countdown until you are off it? I was suppose to reduce it weekly and sometimes that was just too much so I would skip a week, settle down a little and then reduce it again. It gave me a break. It did take longer though and then towards the end I was like, 4 more to go.. I’m nearly done. I went from a really high dose to nothing. I don’t regret it and I’m glad I’m off it and will never touch it again.

Is there anything I can do to help with the hard day? Do you have a safety plan that you use? My psych gets me to use some of it on hard days to try and regulate, not just in crisis. I’m actually about to make ice cubes so when they set I can have a cold glass of water. I’m also currently having an icy pole which is also on my list.

@Captain24 i just got myself ready to go to the shops. I will reply to your post when I get back ☺️

This is what I did today @MissGremlin @Flutterbug9 @Jynx

I still need more shelves for the white on though. But I’ll have to wait. I should have taken before pics