I can’t cope

@Shaz51

I'm glad my countdown is helping

@Flutterbug9 That soubds perfect to me. My doggie Wilbur has no issues with fire works. My cats are inside and are all good but my parrot gets absolutely terrified. And I’m hoping no one does illegal fireworks tonight because she really really is terrified and I have to hold her so she doesn’t smash about her cage and hurt herself.

Also I live right in wetlands and the stupid Council fireworks terrify the birds, owls and other animals.

@Captain24 i hear you on getting overwhelmed with having alot of people around and that's completely ok. I know it can be hard when there's alot of conversations happening at once.

Just know that we are here for you and we really do care about you ❤️.

@Captain24 You are always welcome on any thread at any time. You’re part of our family and we love you.

Nothing to be sorry about @Captain24

If is ok with you, I’ll drop in at times.

thanks for sharing photo of your 2 babies, they are lovely.

thinking of you and always here for you.

Oh they are so cute @Captain24 😍. Thank you for sharing. Do they still have a lot of energy, being young? Are Chi's a high-energy dog generally?

Please don't feel you have to go elsewhere to air your feelings. This was your thread - sorry we hijacked it. We can move our chat elsewhere, so you can keep this for you again. 🤗

I don't mind being tagged. 😊 And I don't perceive those actively in a chat as a group-tag.

I totally respect your preference for less audience / people. Please feel free to ask me to not post/read this thread if you would prefer. I want to respect you and your needs. 😊.

Your lack of expecting people will care might also be partly from your social anxiety too 😉 as well as from past hurtful experiences of course, and if you have any negative self-talk/image/etc that could be influencing it also. You are just as deserving as everyone else. And you have a good heart for people here too, which always makes me want to give time to people also when i see them helping others. 😊🤗

I don’t expect anyone to go anywhere and please keep your chats going., it’s a public space and I’ll never expect anyone to not chat wherever they want. No one ‘owns’ a thread and this one is exactly the same. It’s usually pretty quiet on here and that’s my own fault. I don’t engage well. @Flutterbug9

I didn’t mean to offend anyone.

I haven’t had a lot of care shown in my life @AlwaysMyself. Just on random occasions and it feels really unsettling. I had surgery over a month ago and my mum cared and it was unusual. When I got the bad results from it she showed care again and also with what I have to face going forward with the results. I’m not use to it. I was really nice to have a proper mum for a little while though and she has been a bit gentler since.

Chihuahuas actually sleep a lot but are high energy when they are on the go. Pix is overweight so she is a little slower but can be full on when she is charged. Jett is just a ball of energy or totally asleep. There is no middle ground with him.

I like to think I have a good heart but I don’t always show it. I feel like I’m generally not an overly nice person and that’s why no one wants to know me. I feel like I have offended you all and that’s why shows that I’m not a good person. I actually hate myself.

Please only leave if you want to which I would understand and wouldn’t blame you. I’m just not really good at always responding properly or quickly. I get completely overwhelmed so easily. High anxiety makes it hard.

That goes to everyone else too.

I don’t cry. Well not usually, I find it hard and don’t allow myself too.

Right now I am..

Please know I am really sorry if I have upset anyone. I didn’t mean too.

I’m going now and not sure if or when I’ll be back. That you all for thinking of me tonight and I’m really sorry for upsetting anyone.

Sitting with you and Pix @Captain24 😊

I am not at all upset @Captain24 😊. Actually, I am quite honoured that you have opened up to me about these things. I know it can be hard to trust people.

I am glad your mum showed you genuine care, and it sounds like it has been sustained care since too?

I'm sorry you didn't get that care from her during your whole life. Every child deserves a caring and supporting family, but yes sadly that does not always occur (even with well-meaning parents sometimes).

Please be self-assured that I do not mind if people have a long delay before responding. 🙂 I know a number of others also get overwhelmed from responses at times and do the same. When I am too busy or not well mentally I may disappear for a few days also, or be more scarce. It think it is important to put your needs first, so i am glad to hear you do. 😊