I can’t cope

I guess what I wrote past guidelines @AuntGlow

Im just going to go to bed.

Im not ok. Far from it.

I just can’t face any more of today.

What I need to write won’t pass guidelines and I’ll get into trouble so I guess that means I’m done for now.

Would you like to talk about the post at all @Captain24 @Bow? I know you are both forum friends and here to support one another, so I want to make sure you're feeling okay. I am more than happy to be here with you to hold that space? (If you'd like, just let me know.) 🥰

And @Captain24 maybe some rest is what you need right now? I know when I am feeling this way, simply surrendering to sleep is the best thing to reset. 💛

No not at all thanks @AuntGlow

@Captain24 dont really have an issue with you sorry, just other people and stuff. But obviously doesn’t matter . I can’t be bothered with stuff anymore

Sorry

leaving again

Okay, well please let me know if either of you change your mind!

I am sorry that things with other people are feeling vulnerable right now @Bow, we can chat on your thread if you'd like?

And @Captain24, we will be here when you'd like to chat more too. I hope you are finding some time to regulate and soothe your body this evening.

Big hugs! 💛

Hi @Bow

Im sorry I was so open last night about everything. I don't promise to not do it again though.

I don’t do tired very well and am very touchy and take every thing the wrong way. Most of my arguments occur when I’m so exhausted and I get an attitude. It’s no excuse but just wanted to explain. I will try to think before I ‘speak’

I think I get what other issue is a related to as well though. Me… and with the other stuff. I just want to say that I don’t ask for it, I never tag unless responded to. I’m sorry you are missed or ‘unseen’. I think I’m getting what you are saying? Please correct me if I’m wrong.

Yeah your on the right track @Captain24 your right. But meh. Hurts

anyway hope you have an ok day

I get that it hurts @Bow. I am really sorry that it happening to you. If I could change it for you I would happily do that for you.

Hope you will be ok.

I had a really deep hard appointment with my psych. I’m exhausted and drained. Oh and emotional. I nearly cried a couple of times. Apparently I have to tell myself that it’s ok for my to cry but it’s hard to believe.

The mirema that I had inserted during my surgery 2 weeks ago has a hormone in it. After doing some research apparently it can cause depression and mood changes, also can make adhd worse.

I have to try and get an appointment with my GP to talk to him about it and see if it’s short term or ongoing. Plus I need scripts for my anti-psychotic and antidepressants. She doesn’t want to have me deal with withdrawals as well. Getting an appointment is so hard.

To top everything off I think I have my period but I can’t be sure if it is or if it’s from the mirema. I wish it never happened.

All my mood changes that I describe also match with a mixed bipolar episode and heading towards a depressive episode but it could just be hormones. I’m so confused right now. While answers would help to understand what’s going on it doesn’t change the way I’m feeling and it doesn’t lessen the current impact.

T/W heavy thoughts. Please add spoiler tag.

@AuntGlow

I had the rod in my arm for many years @Captain24 and when I went to rehab and seen the gp there she told I should really get it out cause it can cause/make depression worse.

Hey @Captain24 Sounds like there's a lot going on for you at the moment

Trying a new birth control method can be a very draining experience in itself as your body adjusts , so going through this adjustment period and having a heavy psych session at the same time - no wonder you're feeling close to tears. I know how difficult it is for you to cry - even I struggle to let myself cry sometimes even though I know it's okay to cry, sometimes I'll still really try to fight it and in those times I try to remind myself that crying is just a natural bodily reaction to my emotions, and that it serves a purpose: It can help us to self-soothe and help us to re-balance our emotions among other things

Anyway, talking to your GP about what you're experiencing sounds like a good idea! These things can effect everyone so differently and it's hard to know what it might be like for you until you try it. Hopefully your GP will be able to give you some answers

I know things are hard and heavy right now but we're here for you