I can’t cope

I saw it before it was removed.

You don’t know about my life outside of here so please just buy out.

This is why [edited by moderator]

I don’t know what I said that was wrong but ok.

Hi @Captain24 - just wanted to let you know that we do see you and see that you're struggling. That doesn't mean you're not valued here. Please remember that what we feel isn't always the truth - and you are very wanted here, no matter what your mind might be telling you.

Look after yourself, and please don't hesitate to reach out to your preferred crisis service if things become overwhelming for you tonight. You don't have to do this alone ❤️

If this is inappropriate please let me know. I don’t want anymore aggressive responses. @Jynx @tyme

@Captain24 EEEE CUTIES!! Beach time and Bday time, bless!! I love 😍

Yeah there's definitely times where I want to be able to do something but like, I wake up too late or I'm too sleepy to get a wriggle on and so I end up realising I don't have the time before shift starts. Can sometimes make stuff difficult, like if I have to delay meal prep or ducking to the chemist or something. But luckily not so often that it causes me big distress!

How's your day going?

Yeah. They are having fun @Jynx. Pix got into really deep water today. She was so impressed with herself and Jett followed but when it got too deep he panicked and ran out. He is doing well considering how much he hates water. He has been going in a bit but not too far.

I went to the beach for me time earlier. It was really nice. We went to the markets earlier and took the dogs to another beach.

We are going out to dinner with my brother, his girlfriend, my niece and her boyfriend. Expensive for me and dad! Lots of stress for me too, to much criticism and to overwhelming with so many people. I have taken extra adhd meds.

I get the sleeping to long and not being motivated to get things done before jumping on here. Then the stress of not having time. I don’t know how you do it! I couldnt do it anymore. Kudos to you for doing it especially when it can be so hard. I’m proud of the way you can navigate things. It’s an inspiration.

This is my afternoon walk.

OMG love the pic @Captain24 - love that ocean spray off the waves 😍

Aww thanks hun. Taken me a while to get here but it means a lot to me to know that it can be helpful for others 💜

Eeeeep..... when you leave? Hope it's not too overstimulating and that your family behave themselves! Mostly I guess haha.

Anything cool at the markets?

Good evening @Captain24!

How are you today? Your views look amazing and so serene, what a beautiful place to be. 😍

I am just touching on your message from when I was last on!

I understand how when other people suggest you have messed up somehow, that it would validate some of your core beliefs... I wonder how you could practice compassion for yourself in those moments?

Aww Pix, I am glad she made it through the trip without being sick. It sounds like it was a really arduous trip for you. It must have been a huge relief when you got to stop driving. 😮‍💨

Oh, being guilt-tripped and belittled is never okay... I am so sorry you have to experience this, especially when you choose you, that must feel awful. It helps to give me a little more insight into why you might be so hard on yourself, Captain. Have you been able to do anything for yourself so far? 💛

haha that is so fair! There are actually many people who are in their 40's/50's at these events! The DJ was 48 and going grey hehe But a lot of my friends are DJ's, so I end up going along to things they recommend (which are always good quality!) What kind of music do you like at the moment?

This is a great question and something I am still learning. Psychotherapists focus on providing ongoing therapy, whereas psychologists can do this and are able to diagnose/work with more complex cases/provide Medicare rebates, etc.

Hello @Captain24 ! I just saw your photos! Love em! Not sure if you are around?

Happy birthday Jett! Is that why you had to go to the pet shop?

I’ll take some awesome photos in the next couple of days so I will tag you in them. @Jynx We are going to a spot that we have to climb up to and the waves crash into the rocks.

It is helpful. It shows that there is a possibility of getting there. Some days it doesn’t seem that anywhere close is even possible. But sometimes if feels helpful knowing that you guys have been through it and come out the otherside

Just getting home. It was ok. I didn’t get put down too much. I just stayed kinda quiet. I’m glad it’s over though. I just didn’t know what to say to anyone it was a lot to take on though.

I just got some candles. They have really fancy ones but I just wanted some to just burn.

How was your morning this morning?