I can’t cope

I've got a few more things to make with the cricut before i pack it up. I promised to make some designs on t-shirts for the kids.

Once those project are done, I can then pack stuff up and tidy my house! @Captain24

Are you working on any projects?

It’s not @tyme and I have a 4 hour drive tomorrow. At least we stop a couple of times as I need to get Pix out of the car or she will vomit!

Yeah… I’ll just have to wait and see. My GP was pretty adamant that I get in straight away. So I guess time will tell.

I see a dermatologist yearly. She is keeping an eye on my vitiligo and does skin checks while I’m there. She removed a few suspicious moles. She thought that they were ok but wanted to double check. I guess I’ll just have another bit cut out of my skin. I’m not worried though as it’s only been about 6 weeks. I’ll just make sure I put suncream on it while I’m away and in the sun so much.

So you don’t get regular skin checks? Work has someone come in yearly as well. I don’t go to those anymore.

Oh that would be for a different household! Do the kids miss them? It’d be nice to have your own space back though.

That sounds pretty cool. I didn’t know you could make t-shirts with them. I just thought it was labels. I guess you aren’t coping with the mess? Any other projects you want to do?

I have a paint by numbers that I started months ago and have only done 2 colours. I hate it!

Ive ordered these and when you pick the stuff out they are like little stones. They are fidgets but I thought I could use the little stones in resin coasters so now that it’s warming up I might think about getting that back out again. I have been doing a lot of Lego though.

I love resin stuff, but I just haven't put in the time or effort to invest in making anything. At the moment, I have a titanic "lego" set I bought to make with my nephew. It's not the real lego. I wanted to try the cheapo ones so I bought it online. My sister tried a Kmart 'lego' thing, but i didn't like it. So I'm trying different stuff. I've got titanic as well as a shoe to build. I also bought a Rush Hour game! It's a bit fun. So when i have down time, I just work on the rush hour game. It's a game where you arrange the vehicles then try to take the red vehicle out. It's an IQ game.

And the kids won't miss the in laws. In a way, the kids bully the in laws. They don't listen to the in laws at all. They are going to decide if they will live in Melb or Syd.. then we'll look into a property for them.

And no, I don't get skin checks. I barely have time to go to the doc! I still need to get vaccines for when I go overseas. Geez... it's only a few weeks because I leave mid Dec and don't come back until end of Jan or something. So I need to vaccines first.

Oh, with the t-shirts, I just make the designs and iron them on. I've got the shirts already. But it depends on what they want me to design for them.

Oh, and I still have the 2 diamond art things I have to catch up and finish. Not there yet.... still a way to go before I tackle those.

But yeah, I really like resin. I know someone who made keyrings with the cricut, then poured resin over them. It looked so cool @Captain24

Just too many projects.

I was just writing a post and it disappeared!

Resin is fun but quite expensive. I have moulds for wooden placemats and matching coasters that I want to fill with resin but I want to do it in different colours and make it swirly kind a thing. I also have a wooden chopping board that I want to do the handle and the edge near the handle. I’ve seen them but want to try it myself. Now that it’s warmer the resin will be easier to handle. It has to be at a certain temperature to mix and set.

I also have a couple of wooden boxes that I’d like to try and do the lid of.

I also bought a wooden boxes that I want to do mosaic on. I have the picture in my head but not sure if I am capable of doing it. I function more in summer so maybe I’ll get some of this stuff done.

I have a diamond art that I have started but it’s in the spare room. I might have to get it out again. Do you have 2 on the go or just 2 to do?

Lego sounds like a good thing to do with him. Quality you and him time. It always seems to be about the girls and he is just the quiet one in the background. The titanic sounds hard but the show sounds cool. I’ve never heard of that game before. I don’t know the word I’m looking for… not distracting.. not grounding… it’ll come to me I guess

You sound artistic to design stuff? I never knew that about you! It’s cool that it’s an iron on. That makes more sense in my literal thinking asd mind!

That sounds challenging with the in-laws. It must be so uncomfortable in the house. Maybe if they move to Melbourne and have their own place they won’t hang around as much or as long? I guess they love and want to spend time with their grandkids.

How do you get your scripts renewed? I have one that I can only get from the psychiatrist so I guess I’ll be seeing her a lot. I always seem to be at appointments lately, whether is medical or mental.

Artistic? I have to say I've always been super creative and I think that's because of the ADHD. I'm dumbed down over the years, only because I don't make time to be creative.

I also like to fix things that don't work. Once again, time is the issue. I used to sit for hours pulling things apart and fixing them. Now, it's just faster and easier getting people to do it.

I reckon I have a strong ability to be a handy person, but I've never been around practical, handy people, so that's where I go down in skill.

As for my scripts, I'm not allowed to have any. They are on my file so my care team links in with the doctors and they pass scripts on. I then get meds delievered to my house each week in a webster pack.

It was a safety precaution started when I was in a really bad state. Deliveries used to be every 3 days.... @Captain24

This just shows how BAD and unwell I was... and it wasn't all that long ago.

That’s so cool that you are creative. @tyme. I hope you find a way to make time for your creativity. I definitely didn’t get that part of adhd!

I think that maybe I could have been handy. But like you said with no one to learn the skills off makes it hard. I’d actually like to be able to make furniture!

I was told that I couldn’t fix things, that I wouldn’t know how so that quashed any trying but I love that you can. You’re really surprising me tonight!! This is why I love talking to you there is always more to know about you!

That makes sense. Is that going to make it hard to go away for so long?

Every 3 days is rough! It’s good that they looked out for you. Weekly is still not very long. Are you still not allowed them or just chose not to?

You have definitely come a long way.

Oh, that's really, really tough. @Captain24 What would you change about your job, if you could?

haha I totally hear you on that. I find it so frustrating and exhausting when I can't muster up the energy to focus, so I am glad your medication has helped.

Ah, that sounds SO nice - take me with you! (in spirit)

Time to yourself in your happy place sounds very well-deserved. I can't wait to hear more about it. 🫶

I am good! I did another theatre performance and went to a big electronic gig on the weekend, which was sooo good. I have also started studying and have an essay due very soon, which I am very openly stressing about haha

Thank you for asking. 💖

I was so angry when they first took hold of my meds @Captain24 . I was fuming that they were controlling me....

But now, I can see why they had to do it.

And now, it's just easier. I'm sure if I ask, they would consider letting me have them... but at the moment, I never have to go to the chemist for meds. I never have to remember what I have to take....

It's all in webster packs and I still get it wrong! I forget meds, or take double, or take the wrong one! Even this week it happened!

Everyone looks out for everyone but they don’t support each other, if that makes sense. Maybe a more welcoming and supportive environment and for me not to be so bad at my job. @AuntGlow

Meds are good!!! My mind just gets a real mess sometimes. But the meds do help settle that a bit which is good.

I’ll definitely be talking about it. I hope mum and dad get along for the while 7 days though. Just a nice and peaceful time away would be good but I’m not holding my breath! At least I get to escape for a little while.

Im glad you got to perform again! An electronic gig doesn’t sound exciting to me.. too much noise! 😂 but I’m glad you enjoyed it.

What are you studying?

I think I’d feel like that too @tyme. When I was first given medication the Pdoc emailed the scripts to the chemist and I wasn’t allowed them. Every change was the same. I was only allowed to order them not have the physical scripts. Now as I get a script I just hand it to them and tell them to keep it. I find it much easier to go on the app and order what I need as I’m sorting out my meds for the week.

It is hard to remember what to take and how many. I have to really concentrate to put them in my pill organiser for the week. I take each box out one at a time and when I have done those ones I put them to the side until all of them are done and then throw them back in the basket.

If you still mess up maybe it isn’t wise to have to think about it! 😂. I guess getting it delivered is so much easier. I have thought about it in my really tough times but it’s hard with my roster as I can’t do weekly or fortnightly but that is still too many anyway and I can do enough damage. My psych asks me all the time whether I have a stockpile and my answer is always yes as I just have so many different ones that I take that means there is a lot here.