I can’t cope

That's sooooo wonderful!

Glad you found some calm again.

❤️

How you doing today @Captain24??

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Hello Hello 🙂 @Former-Member @Captain24

Well hello @Former-Member @tyme

It’s been an interesting day. I’m sitting on that edge between going to high or to low. I’ve been slightly above it and slightly below it today.

I had a fight with my parents and wanted to repeat to them what they use to say to me. But I’m better than that and can’t hurt people the way they did to me by saying hateful things and say that I want to send them away and never see them again.

Hey @Captain24,

That stinks. Arguments can leave you feeling unnerved. And good on you for taking the high road. I know it is hard and unfair but you can hold yourself with high esteem. I remember a few weeks ago, after your holiday, you were struggling with the idea that you are different from them and questioning your place in the family (black... or white sheep if I remember correctly). I think you have to deal with things in a way that are right for you. You are amazing ⭐

Are you ok though? These things can take their toll 💜

Thank you so much for your kind words. @Former-Member I really needed to hear them today.

Yes I’m definitely the white sheep amongst the black.

It was trivial but they just had no respect or boundaries for my privacy and just no care for my stuff. They were only trying to help in there own way though. I am really proud of myself though as I did take the high road and msg them to apologise.

Im feel a little unnerved and really unsettled.

On top of today. I’ve had a major medication change and I’m actually scared of the meds I’ve been changed to. I also have meds now so that if I go into a manic I can bring it back down or for if I can’t sleep.

Good on you for your reflection about todays interactions too. That shows a real understanding of yourself and this is rare among adults.

Medication changes can also be unnerving! Hopefully the changes felt are small and in the right direction. Here with you tonight @Captain24 💛

The anti anxiety meds are helping me to think clearer and have more understanding of myself. I think it’s helping with some of my confidence issues. @Former-Member.

After my argument I emailed my nurse just to vent as I felt the downward spiral begin. She was absolutely fantastic! She bought me out of the spiral and I was able to tell her the positive changes in me and myself awareness. Instead of her having to point them out.

I have come so far in this journey. I know that there is still a really long way to go but I least I’m finally able to see some good about myself rather than just hatred.

This makes me VERY happy. You deserve to be proud of who you are @Captain24 💜

It’s been a long, hard rocky road to get here @Former-Member.

I have to try really hard to focus on what I have learnt to try get stable. The hard thing is not slipping back into my bad eating and sleeping habits. Especially when I’ve had a difficult day or exhausted. Like today.